Traum Junge (Dream Boy)

◄ANCIENT HISTORY►

How long has it been since you’ve been gone?

I started to notice so many things I’ve never seen before. Little efforts of kindness, little shy smiles, little gestures of nervosity, little fragments of love in actions—things you used to do around me, but this time, it came from other people I held dearly.

When had I started to accept your death?

What made me forget to miss you and the pain you have burdened me with?

Have I finally willed myself to move on from you?

Pain.

It’s still there, but this time the ache is duller than before.

Is this okay, my love? There might come a time when I’d forget you for a moment. There might be a time when I’d erase a memory of you to make room for new ones. With these thoughts in mind, is it still okay for me to let them in the place that was once yours?

If I did that, will you love me any less?

Will you not be willing to take me with you now?

Will you not wait for me on the other side anymore?

Will half of my heart not be enough to suffice our ancient history?