The Unwanted Luna

"Honestly Amelia, how can you ask me to do that, her of all people...after everything she has put you through" Nolan said looking at me as if I had grown a third head. We were in his house and I had just asked him to mark Bianca as his mate.

The conversation didn't go as planned because he outright refused before I even finished my sentence.

I was still in heat and I risked it by going to see Nolan because Bianca was getting worse and he was my only hope.

Thankfully that didn't backfire on me given that Nolan wasn't even affected by my heat which meant we could talk without him wanting to pin me to a bed.

Xavier was still mad at me and hasn't talked to me since two days ago but in my defense I had thought he would jump at the opportunity to be mated to Bianca for life.

I had honestly convinced myself that he still wanted my sister and that the guilt they felt at my supposed death was what had kept them apart all these years, not that it matters in any way.

"Please, I know what she did, I was there but Nolan she is still my baby sister and deep down I still love her. I hate what is happening to her, no matter what she did" I pleaded to him, tears almost falling down my face.

It was honestly hard watching her suffer. True I had imagined countless times, both her and Xavier getting their due but not like this.

Nobody should go through what I went through or what she is going through, it just isn't right.

Then there is the promise I made to my parents. I had promised to forgive her but here I was still holding on to the bitterness and anger.

I was honestly getting tired of dragging it around with me, I was tired at being angry and bitter all the time.

Onyx was right, I needed to heal, I needed to let it all go. Yes I admit I won't heal in a day but I have to take the first step towards that and that first step is deciding to let go of all my past hurts and then actually letting them go.

It was the only way I would ever find peace and be happy with my life instead of always pretending that I am not dying from the inside.

"I don't know if I can, I honestly don't think I can be mated to her... I've spent years hating her for what she put you through so how can I just turn around and accept her as a mate?" he asked, running his hand through his hair and pacing the room.

His hands kept clenching and unclenching and you could feel his frustration rolling off his body. I've known Nolan for seven years and I think, I,more than anyone else, knows him better.

He is the most kind and unselfish person I know. He's the type of person who goes out of his way to help others in need.

I have always admired him and I always thought that if I was ever to settle down I would want someone exactly like Nolan.

But he can also be quite stubborn, something I realize is a common trait with most of the men around me including my mini man Tristan.

When Nolan decides he hates you and that you're an enemy then it would take a miracle to change his stand.

He loves hard and fiercely but he also hates with the same intensity. So I get what he is saying but right now he is my only hope.

Yes there are other deities that I would get her mated to, but among all of them Nolan was the only one I trusted to treat her well even though he doesn't love her.

"I know Nolan but I'm only asking that you mark her and save her life, she is getting weaker by the moment and I am afraid she won't be able to hold on for much longer before she becomes one of the forsaken" I reasoned with him before continuing,

"Besides I am sure that you can work out something with her when she wakes up. I talked to Selene and both of you can even choose other partners without it affecting either of you. Since you are a god and not her true mate neither of you will be bound by the rules of mating. Sleeping with other people won't cause the marks of betrayal" I finished hoping that I had convinced him.

I hoped that he would agree because if he didn't I wouldn't know what to do. I would probably have to get her mated to someone else, some other god and that alone wouldn't guarantee her peaceful life at all. Gods are the worst of playboys first of all and they are devious as hell. Most of them do something when it is of benefit for them or they think they can use it against another deity.

The last thing I want is for her to be used as a pawn after what Agron did to her and trust me when I say most of the other gods would use her as one.

"I still don't think this is a good idea. I don't love her, let alone like her." He said after a while looking at me pleadingly.

Pleading for me not to make him mate with my sister but I couldn't do that.

"You don't have to, like I said you can both live separate lives without it affecting the other. It will only be a mating of convenience nothing more nothing less...I know you don't want this but honestly, Bianca is really a good person, she was hurt and angry and still young when she was told I had killed our parents, of course she would believe what the adults told her and I don't think she meant to fall for Xavier, when all these things are removed from the equation she's truly a good woman, I have seen it these past few months I've been with them" I told him in my last ditch attempt to convince him. My body had begun to get hotter and I knew it was the heat.

I couldn't be too far from Xavier without my body shutting down and I had been gone for almost two hours to another realm at that.

It was the third day of my heat and it was getting harder and harder to put a leash on it.

I mostly stayed in my room in the pack house mainly because I didn't want an outright brawl between Xavier and his unmated males and also I didn't want to do anything foolish like seeing Xavier, losing my marbles and dragging him to the next available room. Nothing I did helped and I tried everything including trying to get it on with another man even though Sophie had warned me that it wouldn't work.

My body had rejected him and I literally became sick the moment he put his hand on me.

Getting myself off had also not worked because it only lasted for a few minutes before I had gone back to wanting to crawl out of my own skin. It was no joke because it was getting worse as the days went by.

I needed to convince him quickly so that I could leave as soon as I could or else I would end up falling down and curling into myself in a hot mess on the floor and that is something I didn't need or want Nolan witnessing at all.

"Please Nolan, I've never begged you for anything..." I went to say but he interrupted me with a smirk before saying;

"Are you sure about that? Because I remember you begging for a certain member of my body part" he said wiggling his eyebrows making me smile causing him to smile also.

He really did have a beautiful and dimpled smile that made me forget momentarily what I was supposed to be doing or saying.

For some reason, even though I am literally begging him to mate my sister and I am all caught up with my bond with Xavier, I still feel a loss.

I had decided that when I did finally chose to settle down and if Nolan accepted me then it would be with him and now here I was asking him to take my sister instead.

I hadn't wanted to admit it before because I was scared of love after what had happened with Xavier but I had been slowly falling for Nolan.

My love for him wasn't quiet intense but it had been budding none the less. It took me this long to realize it.

"Earth to Lia"

I looked back at him to find him waving his hand in front of my face.

"Sorry, as I was saying...please, I'll forever be indebted to you if you do this for me, you are the only one I trust with her"

I could see the fight going on inside him, he was clearly torn and didn't know which path to take. I sighed and took his hand in mine.

"Look I know this is a lot to ask but at the end of the day it's your decision and I won't force it on you no matter what. I value your friendship more than anything including losing you if I force you into this when you don't want to. I leave for you to sleep on it and if you decide to help them come by tomorrow and if you don't I won't hold you to it and neither will our friendship be affected." I told him sincerely, meaning every word I said.

No matter his decision, our friendship, our bond won't be affected. I give his hand a squeeze, peck his cheek then leave before I collapse on the floor.

All the while still hoping he will show up tomorrow even if that is selfish of me and though the thought of him coming tugged at that little part of my heart that had claimed him.