Chapter Chapter forty-eight
Evadiene
I had pushed him to the edge of restraint, making him groaned angrily and cursed under his breath before flipping us over to straddle me. In a second he was pulling my pants off, tossing them over to join my shirt, and had his face moved deep between my legs.
I gasped aloud, which he enjoyed immensely, his arms wrapping around my thighs to hold me close to him. “Mmmm, something to grab onto,” he moaned, his lips barely moving far enough away from mine to speak.
He was relentless, barely caring about my pleasure as it felt like he was trying to lap of every drop my pussy would give him. I was begging for him to let up when he introduced his finger inside me. I felt my walls clenching around his digit, eager to feel him on every side. My moans were languid and loud, and he pulled away to look up at me.
“Good girl,” he growled against my skin, the rumbles sending fireworks through me.
His kissed up both sides of my thighs, my toes curling as he neared my clit again and my legs twitching out as he playfully nipped at me. Then he was crawling up over me, alternating which arm he wrapped under my hips to slide me up the bed with him. I could feel his cock swinging like he was knocking against my opening, begging for entry.
Covyn lowered himself onto his forearms, hips lips teasing at my breasts as sucked and nipped me. I bucked against him, begging for him to enter me again but he paid slow and close attention to my top half. He moved up my neck to my ears, pulling him into his mouth and letting me hear his lust on his breath. The sounds he made had my legs curling together with the uncomfortable feeling of being too wet returned between them.
“I seem to recall these being a weakness of yours,” he husked out, tugging on my ear again.
I groaned against his teasing, my hips rubbing against his and my throat rumbling the complaint. “Covyn… —Navi?” I looked at him and his head perked up, his eyes darkening. “I want this,” I moaned, wrapping my legs around his hips instead.
I didn’t think his eyes could get any bigger as his restraint came apart, like me, at the seams. He bit his lip, staring down at me before running his fingers roughly down my stomach and between us, feeling my wetness before...
“Uuhhh,” I gasped out loud in something more than shock.
He had pulled himself up to my opening and entered me nearly entirely right away with how wet I was and how tightly I held myself to him. My legs went to jelly and began loosening around him.
“Come on, my love, hold onto me,” he encouraged, lifting my hips back against his with one hand and holding one of my legs around him with the other as he sat up.
I nodded thickly, reaching for him. I pulled him to me and then we were a mess of sensations. Anything we could touch, kiss, scratch, was fair game as he plowed into me and it felt like a race to the finish. He wasn’t tiring, but I felt like this was the last time I would ever have anything like this, and I wanted to remind him who was right.
“Let me ride you,” I whispered, and he eagerly rolled over to put me on top.
My legs stretched out widely over him, making it hard to go quickly, but I could take him all the way in and out slowly. It was a sensation that he didn’t seem to have felt before and I watched his eyes roll back, not really sure if he was in control, or him and Navi were sharing in this. I groaned against him, curving as I went to rub my clit against him.
I was just as close as he was and I kept my pace to bring us both to the edge and then sunk myself completely on top of him and rocked him deep inside me. I could hear his groans, and I hadn’t been able to stop mewing my enjoyment the entire time. My hand now slapped over my mouth as my pitch got embarrassingly high, but his hands reached up taking both my wrists and holding them far from my mouth.
“No one will hear your pleasure but me, but I want to hear it as I feel it.” His hands with mine moved onto my hips, tugging and pushing my hips to continue my movements with him now pulling me harder down on him.
I gasped and cried out his name as he came with me, but I stayed on top of him, riding out his orgasm with my own. We were both panting heavily when I finally moved to lay down beside him. He quickly moved his arm around me, pulling me into his side and squeezing me lightly. When his breathing calmed down he started running his fingers up and down over my hip, like he couldn’t bring himself to stop touching me.
We laid in silence for a while, just listening to the sounds of each other breathing and our hearts slowing down. Until…
“You used your real name at the club?”
I smirked. “I was angry when I filled out my papers, I wanted my dad’s attention, and in the past I had done a similar thing and he came to reprimand me. It didn’t work this time though.”
His hand lazily ran up and down my spine, stretching out the time that I could forget all my worries. Adopting his steady breathing and heart-rate as my own would calm me the rest of the way. I ran my fingers in circles over her chest, twisting the small tufts of hair into swirls.
“But you can’t use it in public,” I reminded. “That name is very old, no one is to know it.”
“But you called yourself ‘Nova’ already at the club,” he pointed out.
“If I called you Cov, would it be the same as your name? Some names naturally have a short form that is commonly used, but it still isn’t their name,” I pointed out in return.
““What would happen?” He asked, the question instantly alarming me but I tried to stay calm.
“Covyn,“ I began gently, “you as alpha must understand the power of a name. So few calling you anything but your title means something. MY NAME means something too. If the wrong people know it or hear it spells can be broken. There are still families out there that have passed down the hunting of my kind for sport or sale.”
He cringed with that. “My pack wouldn’t…”
“It’s not all your pack though is it? And why would the hunting of phoenix or dragons ever come up in conversation? There really are so few of us left.” I returned to petting circles on his chest, not realizing when I’d stopped. “I know Sequoia is worried, but I believe that is why my father will make a deal with me. Even trapped in my phoenix form, at least I could help maintain our species.”
He began growling with jealousy. “No one will have children with my mate but me.”
“I can’t have children like this,” I informed and he looked down at me. “When I lost my phoenix I lost the ability to carry children.. Sequoia was a mercy granted to me, because giving up my phoenix made my power unstable. She grounds me and siphons extra power from me that would otherwise give me seizures.”
“Love…”
“Don’t feel sorry for me,” I interrupted. “It was a choice, some people don’t get that choice.”
He stroke my back and kissed my lips gently. “Just cause some people have it worse, doesn’t mean you can’t feel sad about the hand you have.”
“I know, I…”
“May I mark you,” Covyn said suddenly, making my mouth go dry and I adverted my eyes. “Your marks are gone, but you are still my mate. I love you, please give me a second chance.”
“It’s better this way. If you had marked me, feeling the full spectrum of my emotions…the shift of a phoenix is nothing like that of a wolven. Taking me… you will doom all of your people, or let me go and…”
“I won’t do either…”
“We need to sever our bond.” My words came out harder than I wanted them to, and I regretted them instantly.
“What!?”
“Whether I die or go home, it will feel like death for you. I know..-“ he tried to interrupt me but I spoke louder, “-I know you want to fix everything, but that’s not always possible. Don’t make my time here worth fighting about it. I am the one for the many…”
“Your mate would do it.” His words were as cold as mine were earlier. “That’s what they must be right? Your mate, your first mate. They would gladly do it to save you. I would.”
“It’s probable, but this would be one instance that I’m glad you’re not who they’re looking for. You need to be here to run your pack.” My breath hitched and I stuffed down the lump in my throat. “If they find out who they are, and give themselves up for me, my hundreds of years in exile from my family, giving up my phoenix, everything that’s happened since I made that deal, -was a waste.
“I need them to survive as much as I need you to. Covyn, I ..” I pushed away from him and looked up into his eyes. “I’ve been approached by many over the years, mates given to me by your Goddess, or their Goddess or God, and I’ve always rejected them. You are the first mate I’ve had in a very long time, and I won’t have history repeat itself. I have nothing left to lose except my life, so you will stay back and let me make this deal.”
He growled. “I don’t have to do anything.” I watched his lip curl up into more of a snarl. “You are mine.”
I felt his arm shift beneath me and I pushed myself away as quickly as I could. In a second Sequoia was in her leopard form snarling beside me on the floor. His eyes had darkened and he crouched on the bed like he meant to leap out at me.
“No Covyn, I am my own. I’m just sorry you were forced to be mated to me.”
I began pulling my clothes back on as Sequoia and him growled and roared at one another. Then I moved to the door and opened it, calling her to follow me. I looked back at him on the bed, stuck between forms but unable to form words, sadly.
This isn’t what I wanted.
I shook my head, Sequoia shifting to her smaller cat form to follow me, and closed the door.