One Sided Love

Kate:

Rachel was gone even mother was gone to ... it was my father who has met his old business representative n stopped for a long chat ... now he was in emma room saying goodbye

I said ' Daddy do you want to have a cup of coffee'

He looked uncomfortable n said ' no I think I shall go now... say bye to Alex from my side'

I just nodded n picked up his coat n give it to him... then all of a sudden Martha came with worried expression n said ' kate... oh god kate... Aria is burning n she is so dizzy... we have to take her to the doctor'

When martha said Aria I didn't stop for a moment n run to my baby... when I hold her she was burning.... I started crying n said ' my baby... oh god... martha bring my car keys'

I hold aria n run to my car but my father stopped me n said ' I will take you to the hospital ... you r not in a position to take her ... I will stay with you'

I just nodded n sat in daddy car n run to hospital

The doctor checked Aria n said they have to keep her over night to control her temperature n check her vitals ... a small baby having this kind of trouble is too much for me.

I was sitting in the sitting area... when my father sit with me he give me coffee... I can only take two sips but my mind was going to Aria... I started sobbing quietly.... I can't lose her... she is my everything.... what kind of mother im ... my baby has been neglected n unloved by her father n now I also neglected her..I was now fully crying... then my father awkwardly put his hand on my shoulder... n then I realized that for the first time in my life my father was supporting me... I can't control myself n hugged my father for the first time... he was still but I dont care... I said ' Thank you so much daddy.... I can't tell you how scared I was .... im so happy you are here'

He just stand,still n said ' its nothing.... hmmm... you should probably called Alex'

Alex... shit.... I dont even realized that in all I forgot to inform Alex.... I picked my phone... but I stop when I start recalling all those events when he stated he is not interested in Aria...

I replied Daddy... Alex is busy..n his time will be wasted here'

Father looked annoyed' his child is in hospital n he can't leave his work?

I replied Daddy you of all people should know that when life gives you something unwanted.... then you don't care for that thing.... and in this case Aria is unwanted'

Daddy looked embarrassed... n said nothing

I said' Daddy you should go... mom will be waiting for you.... im here for Aria'

He said' You want me to leave you alone... especially in this time'

I replied' Im always alone daddy.... but still thank you for your support I will never forget that' I said with a smile

He said 'I will stay till doctor checked her'

After few minutes my phone rings it was Alex ... I picked n said ' Hello Alex'

He said 'what the hell Kate.... where are you im here worried sick.... how can you leave emma alone.... I won't even know it was martha who told me'

He was angry I left emma alone but not that Aria is sick n in the hospit

I replied then martha surely informed you why I left emma alone n why I hurriedly leave the house..... Alex.... (I can't control my tears') Alex Aria is in hospital... she was burning in fever.... doctors said they have keep her in hospital for a night... so yeah I can't tell you anything because im worried sick for my baby

He was silent for a moment n said ' shit Kate... how is she... fuck im coming dont worry... im coming'

N he hanged the phone...

Father phone was ringing again n again

N he was ignoring it

I said ' Daddy... you should go... mom might be in worry why you are not home... Alex is coming so dont worry'

He looked uncomfortable to leave me... n I found that to be so comforting that he felt something for me... but mom is, alone so insisted him more... he said ok

Alex

When I reached hospital... I saw kate sitting quietly n looking so tired... I reached her n said 'Kate'

She tiredly looked 'Alex.... wheres Emma'

I replied 'I left her with martha'

She just nodded... I said "hows... I mean what doctor says'

She replied ' they say she is ok.... her temperature is little control... they are keeping her overnight to check if she get any reaction or not... may be they are going to discharged her in the morning'

My heart was hurting.... a little body of Aria has to go through so much... god let her be okay....even I can't love her I still want her to be ok n happy the way she is always.... the flashes of Aria came in my mind when she try to throw her body towards me in the morning...this guilt is going to kill me one day

I said ' kate im so sorry... you know I over reacted... when martha told me.... I become worried... n you know when I try to stay compose then I say something which I don't meant.... n im not only talking about the phone... Im sorry I say shity things in Emma's party... I just become possessive about you all of a sudden .... n im sorry' Kate looked at me with tears in her eyes n said 'Alex its... just forget it ... I just want everything go to normal the way it was... Im so tired... uff I know you r sorry but I also know you will react this way agai... I want god stop testing me more... I can't control it.' Looking kate crying so bad... I hugged her n kissed her forehead... I said ' its ok kate.... let it out... just let it out.... im there for you...i know im an asshole.... I wished you have told me in time then I can there for you... why didn't you tell me kate?'

She replied 'I don't want to disturb you... n secondly you have told me from time to time that you don't want to do anything with Aria.... so I thought its will only waste your time'

N there was has cracked sound n it was my heart... fuck..... I know I do things which no one deserve but I can be that insensitive I realized that today..

I hold kate face n said 'kate.... listen to me.... ok im an insensitive bastard n I have always hurt you... I know I said I can't loved Aria.... but she's a child ... n I might care for her...I might let her down in the future.... not give that kind of attention n love a father's should give her to.... nor never get closed to her.... but in a,difficult time im going to stand for her as long as I can...' Kate sobbed n said 'why can't you try to love her once... she loves you n I can tell you that... then why can't '

I replied softly but firmly ' because I can't kate ... I can't fucking do that.... you know Emily loves emma so much that sometimes she never let her have me.... even when she start working she put her in daycare that provides 24/7 information what n where is emma.... she let me promised her one of the days that if something happens to her I have to loved emma more than anything in this world... n I can't for one minute neglect her nor give priority to someone else.... Im just made that promised to myself after emliy death that no one can take place emma nor I will make emma feel neglected.... I know what im doing is heartless n cruel but im just fulfilling the promise of my dead wife n im bound'

Kate looked at me with devastated expression n said 'I know you loved Emily more than anything n Emma is my life too I also make sure to never neglect her not because of any promises but because she is my daughter n I loved her alot but I hope one day you understand no one takes anyone place... cause God expand your heart for some you love more but don't worry me n Aria will never come between your promises'

I digested those words n sighs heavily.

Kate

Doctors said ' oh look at you pretty girl you have give a mini heart attack to your mommy yesterday but now you're fine n well to go'

Aria graps her blanky n chew that n start shaking her hand and feets n bubbling in her baby language' ehh..ya oh'

Alex n I was standing together the Doctor said she is fine... thank god her fever is gone... like I said she might be teething n because of unusual weather she gets cold but she is fine now... these are some description of the medicines that you have give her for two weeks.... I replied ' Thank you so much doctor ...'

She just smiled n said ' don't worry kate kids her age usually gets those bumps n dumps n they gey alright.... n kate what I suggest you take a long nap you look so tired.... Alex this is your duty'

Alex replied 'Don't worry after this we are going home directly n she will rest thats my promised'

After an hour aria was sleeping in her car booster seat n I was also getting dizzy with tiredness.... but I have to buy some stuff from the pharmacy... I said to Alex' Alex can you stop by at near pharmacy I really need to buy some stuff n medicine ...'

Alex replied 'yeah sure.... give me the description I will buy it'

I said ' you don't have to I will buy it'

Alex replied 'kate im your husband n whatever you need you will tell me directly'

I just half smiled men n their egos

He stopped at pharmacy n said ok these are the list'

I nodded then I remembered n said ' can you bring those fruits yogurt she really like those'

Alex looked at Aria n something strange expression was passed in his eyes he just nodded.

I was waiting in the car then I realized I never told father about Aria... so I text him that Aria is fine n we are going home... no reply came and I wasn't expecting one but I really appreciate but my father did..... Alex came back with medicine n shopper fills with multiple fruit yogurt....

He looked at me n said 'I brought every flavour I don't know what she likes so..'

I just smiled at his gesture... may be he some how cares...