My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance)

My Love My Hatred Chapter 188

I walked around the campus aimlessly, then I saw you. You and Leo. I saw your smile, it was such an innocent and bright smile. I could see Leo Mason reflected in your eyes. I was jealous, I was so envious of Leo. I thought, if only you had smiled at me so warmly once in all these years, maybe, just maybel wouldn't have treated you so badly. If you had smiled at me once, maybe would have softened my heart towards you, I wouldn't have been so cold blooded.

I started to be like a stalker, following you and Leo all the time in secret. Leo found out and I went back from your campus.

After many years later, I only

realized why I did something so strange, it was because, there was always a voice in my heart, telling me it was your birthday, telling me that the day I went to see you was the day you officially became an adult. A poor looking girl finally grew into a beautiful, gorgeous young lady. I thought, why not go and have a look at her......

And so, I flew to your campus. After seeing you that day perhaps I didn't want to admit or remember why I did this, I forgot about it totally,

I forgot temporarily about the things that I did.

I was very sure it was you who stole the data from my safebox. Leo told me before, that you are an extremely

smart woman. You started working part time while studying in high school, and you were even able to get into the best university. Leo said you could easily remember everything you see for a time period after looking at it once. I knew how you were able to guess my password, because you knew me well since then.

I thought my password was hard enough, but she was still able to unlock it. I could have installed at CCTV, but I didn't. I could have changed my lock to a finger print lock, but I didn't. I really wanted to treat you like family. I didn't know why I didn't do those things to protect my own data, maybe subconsciously I was trying to test you?

You didn't love me, but Leo thought you still loved him. Seems like he was also a fool to believe that you loved him still.

He had been doing this research for a long time, even when you guys were still together, you would know. Yet, you still chose to give it to Niklaus, how cold blooded have you become, Jennie? I didn't know if I should happy, because at least now it proved that you didn't love Leo Mason anymore.

When you called out his name on bed, I knew you did it on purpose, because your lids were moving, you weren't really deep asleep. When you used to shout and cry for him long time ago, I knew it was sincere that time, I could feel how painful and hurt you were. But it all changed, I didn't know when, but I knew you didn't love him anymore.

Since when did you stop loving him? Did you really hate all of the Mason's so much? Even when we have a child, you still weren't able to let go of the hatred?

Jennie, you've changed. I couldn't see any kindness in your eyes anymore, I couldn't find any innocence in you anymore. You were not the girl that remained kind and nice even though life gets hard anymore. Now, you've become cruel, you're full of plots. You knew I hate it when you interact with any men, but you still flirted with Anthony. You smiled at him, laughed with him...... you were carrying Lexi in your arms that time, yet you flirted with another man, how would a child think?

She's growing up slowly, Jennie. Couldn't you be nice to me, to the family, for Lexi? Didn't they always say mothers are willing to sacrifice anything for their child? Why couldn't you?

You were always thinking of ways to make me angry, to plot against me. You didn't think about the child, the family. What would happen to a child who grows up in such a family environment? The both of us weren't able to grow up in a complete and healthy family, why couldn't you make it possible for our Lexi?

I thought with Lexi with us, you would start to settle down and be a good wife, a good mother.

I was wrong, I was so wrong. If one child wasn't enough, is 2 enough? 3 children? Would you stop all the things you're plotting against me for three children? I didn't really want a son, I just said that as an excuse. I just wanted more children so you would become more responsible as a mother. I wanted

to use our children as a way to keep you by my side.

Jennie, tell me. I really don't know anymore. What should I do to keep you by my side? I can give you anything, anything in the world, but I will never let you go. I will never let you leave my side!

Jennie, could you stop? You must have wanted to stop all this punish and abusing life right? I didn't want to hurt you or threaten you anymore, but you were always trying to challenge my limits, challenge my love for you.

Jennie, please. I love you. I don't care if you trust me or not, but I love you, sincerely! But I wasn't sure if I was able to continue loving you, the you who had become cruel, full of plots and cold blooded. I didn't know if my love for this you, would be able to keep up. If one day I stopped loving you, your life would turn to hell again......)

Hi readers, sorry for the slow

update of story these few days! I have been extremely busy! I will update more tomorrow! Please stay tuned for more! Finally, Jennie's character changed from an innocent girl to a cold blooded girl, and Lance is beginning to soften down, but there will be more change of development in characters in the future chapters! Thanks for the support. Happy Reading!