Chapter Chapter Sixty-Nine
At the Monarch’s mansion:
I took a few steps towards the door, as I could hear whispers in the distance. I glanced around the corner and saw Radu talking with his brother.
“Her blood? No, I haven’t tasted her! She didn’t have a scratch when we bumped into each other!” His brother said.
“But she said…” Radu stopped in the middle of his sentence, took a deep breath and turned around.
He saw me looking around the corner and I smiled as I quickly got inside the room again. I waited in front of the bed, as I anticipated him to be flashing in the room within a second, which he did, of course.
“Enjoying yourself are you?” Radu asked me.
“Yes, this time I am. That was fun to see.” I said with still a smile on my face. “Besides, it gave me some inside info on you.” I continued.
“And what would that be?” He asked smirking now.
“I guess that you are feeling attracted to me. But because I am marked, you are not going to taste my blood from me directly. Not sure why my mark should have anything to do with, or why it would stop you from such a foul act as drinking blood in the first place, but I will find it out eventually.”
“Attracted to you?” He asked with a smirk, while taking a step closer to me.
I stood my ground, not moving an inch, not being intimidated by him at all.
Looking down at her:
Fascinating.
Infuriating.
Tantalizing.
Oblivious…
Oblivious to my capabilities, yet she is intelligent, strong, and not easily influenced by my words. I’m starting to wonder why she is able to withstand my command. I know she has Alpha blood, but still I’m curious as to how much of my command she can ignore.
“So, do you want to find out, how much I am attracted to you?” I said while running my fingers up and down the skin of her arms.
“No, knowing that you are, is enough for me. You are not going to be able to get under my skin.” She said, looking quite confident.
“Maybe you can lie underneath my skin then?” I asked her, while gently pushing her backwards to the bed.
She is tiny, but has a spirit of that of ten wolves. I haven’t chosen her, she has jumped into my life.
I have made my people stalk her for almost two months now, as I had heard of a female wolf being strong and determined enough to create her own pack and become almost the biggest one there is on this planet.
Yet, she had decided to go to another pack, and find her mate there.
And when the moment came that I wanted to take her mate’s pack to my place, I saw her holding one of my scouts, standing in the moonlight, and I knew she had to become mine.
I never had a pet as strong and beautiful as her, and normally I wouldn’t have taken one that is marked already, as I want my pets to be virgins and untouched. Besides, my ability to look into someone’s past, made me hurl over in all the torture that she has been through. The more pain a female has suffered, the harder it is for me to break down their wall, as the ‘cleaner’ they are, the easier it is for me to make them mine.
But this time I wanted the challenge, this time I wanted to do everything I could to change this females heart and become mine at her own free will. Unlike every other woman, who I can easily change by taking one single look into their eyes, she wasn’t one to succumb to me easily. Believe me, I have tried, all those moments where she would ask me questions and we talked about stupid things. I had looked deeply in to her eyes, forcing my command on her, but it did nothing.
It confused me to know that she could ignore my stares. She was the first one to be able to do that, besides my own people, but I couldn’t find out why. Everything that happened in her past, didn’t tell me how she was able to do that.
I know everything about her, as from the day she was born, to the day that she found out about the rune on her head, having sex with her mate, and finding out that she is barren. Everything that she has lived through was known by me, but still there was something missing. The part of how it was possible that she is immune to me.
Her future however is not something that I can see, or predict. Normally I could predict someone’s actions by reading their character as I looked through their past, as most people make big decisions out of fear, greed or love. But each and every single time that she made decisions, she had another drive for it. It was never out of any of the normal reasons, everything she does is out of logic. She had been tortured, and she didn’t want that for her pack, so she made sure that everyone had a good life. Money wasn’t something she cared for either, her upbringing from her gold and diamonds went straight back into the pack as well. And other decisions that seemed to be taken out of love, came in order of her sister. She just listened to her as it was necessary to show love towards her pack. But she never instigated something out of love from within herself.
Creating a pack of her own was logical, as she is an Alpha, and she wouldn’t allow herself to join in on another pack. Explaining her past to her first mate, was logical too, because he was her mate. And finally leaving him and rejecting him, was logic to her as well.
Even leaving her second mate behind was a solid decision. It was either her, or all of those other wolves. A simple math equation, nothing more, nothing less. Sure she cared for him, and found him to be a worthy mate, but that is because he cares for his pack, is strong and has a good mind for reasoning.
She craved for his touches as well, but that was because lust is just a hormone, which she wanted to oblige to. And the emotion of feeling ashamed to be barren? Yes, her body is supposed to create another life, and now that it couldn’t, she was ashamed of her disfunction. As if she is a machine, which is broken.
“And then what? You get to fuck me and you think that I will love you for it?” She replied to my question, where I asked her to lay underneath me.
I smiled, she has always been this straightforward, and it felt like I knew her from the inside out.
“I do want to fuck you, but it wouldn’t matter to you. You have faced too much already, to care for another man who wants to stick his dick inside of you.”
I could see her face being scrunched up in thinking. It really wouldn’t matter to her, if I were to take her right now.
“You have either been stalking me for quite some time, or you have some magical way to read into me. Do you know my future as well?” She mocked me.
I was contemplating if I should tell her or not. But if I want her to change her mind, and to become mine, I need to be telling the truth. Maybe not everything that I know and what I’m capable off, but some of it wouldn’t hurt me. I have lived too long already, to start getting afraid of a female’s emotions now.
“When I touch someone I can see their past, but only their past.” I said while touching her cheek with my hand.
“So you know about the rune on my head? And you know that I don’t know how long I will live through death?” She asked me without hesitation.
If I would have been lying about my ability she would have told me her plan right now. Can she tell when I’m lying or not?
“Yes.” I replied.
“Is that why you didn’t kill me this morning? Your twisted mind is caring for me, and thus reluctant to let me die another time?”
She isn’t afraid of me, or of dying at all. She has suffered pain, more than anyone could bear to witness, and even then she is just as determined and strong as she is now. There hasn’t been a single thing in her life that would knock her down on her feet.
I could have chosen to torture her for her comment about me being twisted, but that wouldn’t matter to her. She would just accept the pain and get on with life after.
“In some sort of way, yes. I know that you don’t know how many times you have left, you are just stalling for your mate to come up with some way to defeat me.” I stated as I knew how she was thinking.
“So, you know that I’m stalling and still you aren’t killing me? Shit, you must care for me more than you let me know.” She said while walking away from me.
Was she right about her statement? Was I caring more than I had known myself?
I followed her gait and waited until she was done thinking.
Suddenly she stopped moving and looked me in the eyes.
“You aren’t going to torture me, you aren’t going to kill me and you know all about my past. You care for me in a way that I can’t seem to understand, because I haven’t shown you any affection at all. In fact, I feel disgusted by the way you and your people live. And for that reason, and many others, I’m never going to commit to you. You know this, so why keep me here?” She asked.
She was right, but I can’t let her leave. She is too intriguing, too intelligent and too beautiful to let go. And there is something that I still yet have to uncover about her. I don’t know what it is, but the fact that she can ignore my commanding stares, has me wondering…
“Besides, you could have taken both me and my wolves, why did you only take me?”
“Because you said you could live forever.”
“Bullshit! You knew that it isn’t for eternity, the Goddess only granted me with an specific amount of lives! You knew that, the moment you touched me. You made the decision to take my deal, instead of listening to your own logic reasoning. So, why did you only take me?!” She yelled and put her finger against her own chest to exclaim her comment even more.