Tide of Life

Life is a struggle, it's a constant struggle and it never gets easier every day and it will take more struggles to experience and shift that mindset from a negative perspective towards a new positive insight into life.

She's Young and used to be joyful,

She has seen a lot of things, endured and experience a lot of pain to not be able to bear another ups and breakdowns in her life.

Her childhood experience moulded her into what she is right now.

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A child that has witnessed her father begged for a single penny,

Begged people to lend him money to feed his own family.

A child that witnessed a mother broke down,

cried helplessly when her child was about to be taken away.

She seen them strive, suffer from the rain that breaks through upon the hole of their ceiling.

Held within each other’s arm when the earthquake have decided to shook their home.

They have eaten salt with rice, planted veggies in the backyard for food to serve on their plates.

Have sold empty liquor bottles and newspapers for a few coins to earn, while the mother and father work in a factory,

Harvesting corns and rice, gambling, struggling but somehow felt blessed to be able to send their children into school.

A child that has witnessed how her brothers and sister grew up in poverty.

Have witnessed how her sister tried to escape away from their family.

Have witnessed how her sister struggled from a rebel child to chasing her dreams to get away from the chaos she was in or still fighting against within herself until this day on.

Her sister and mother fought numerous times, their clashing wrath made herself to shut all the voices down, which set her high walls to keep her emotions hidden behind.

She sees how the world closes its door for their living but witnessed how heaven happily opened its windows for a new beginning.

They've been through thick and thins trials and had to experience most of it.

Breaking through upon giving themselves “with no options” to survive and relying on others’ decisions to put grace on their palms.

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She even heard her own self begged God many times,

demanded an answer to all her prayers.

Begged him to lend her light to survive the chaos in her head,

to lessen the weight in her chest to survive her life,

while SHE endured every bit of her pain that creeps down into her system.

Being apart from a home that you used to have will teach you a lesson that you'd never had.

But so long you're breathing, you won’t forget the memories of loss.

The sparks that you've missed in your childhood eyes, that out of sudden disappears in the dark, to see how beautiful the world could be If we only knew how to appreciate life even in a storm.

How we could have been missing the smiles and losing hope if we can restore them just by remembering the fact that there will be no rainbow in the sky if there were no rain beforehand.

Those memories reminded me that life is beyond beautiful, life is a journey, life is a lesson to learn, will always be knowledge to gain and god’s wisdom to share.

Know that you won’t learn to value and find the essence of life until you experience the season of hardship.

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