Book 4: Chapter 67
~SCARLETT~
It’s been four days since the biggest heartbreak in our academy. At least, that’s what everyone is calling it. They’ve never seen anyone embarrass themself the way that I did on that day.
The comments and rumors about me had died down drastically yesterday. I’m not sure what happened, but I was grateful that it was almost over. Going to the academy was becoming a great task, especially since Clara still wasn’t speaking to me.
I tried multiple times to get her to say something, but she ignored me each time. She always locked herself in her room and refused to answer me when I knocked on her door.
I didn’t want to push her or force her to forgive me. And so, I was giving her the space that I knew she needed. What I did was unforgivable. I’d gotten carried away because of my feelings.
I exited my room and saw her standing before my door. She’s looking at me, and my hands and lips begin to tremble. It’s the first time she’s acknowledged me since that night. This is the closest we’ve ever been since then.
“Can we talk?” She asks me.
I nod, unable to say anything. I was in shock that she was actually speaking to me.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t speak to you the past few days.” She apologizes.
My eyes are wide; why was she the one apologizing?
“Clara—”
“Let me finish, please.” She stops me.
I nod. I bit my l*p to stop myself from cutting her off again.
“What you did, it was difficult for me to accept because it’s something I never expected from you. I’ve known you since you were a baby. I know that you’re kind and loyal. I know you’re sweet and one of the most trustworthy people I’ve ever known. So that’s why it hurt so much when I found out you had feelings for Carter and chose to keep the truth from me.”
She takes a deep breath, “at the same time, I knew that I was to blame for everything. I was the one that pushed you towards him. I was the one who told you to get closer to him. I made you change how you dressed and forced you to attend his games and parties. I pushed you right into his arms even though I knew that you had no experience with men, especially men like Carter. He has all the experience in the world when it comes to women. He knows how to make a woman want him. I should have known he would have used his player ways on you. I should have known you would have gotten caught up in it just like I had.”
Why was she taking the blame for the entire thing?
“Clara,” I whisper. “I’m the one to blame for everything. I knew what Carter did to you in the past. I knew what he was capable of. Still, I allowed myself to be fooled and caught up in his lies. I believed him when he acted like he had feelings for me. You’re my sister; I shouldn’t have done something so horrible to you.”
She smiles, and it reaches her eyes as she pulls me in for a tight hug. “Let’s just agree that we both made mistakes. I wish you would have told me. All you had to do was tell me you were developing feelings for him. I would have stopped it right away. I wouldn’t have forced you to get closer to him. All this could have been avoided if I’d moved on without trying to hurt Carter back.”
“Thenk you, Clere.” I cry. “I thought I hed lost you for good. Thenk you for forgiving me.”
She k****s my foreheed, “You’re my little sister Scerlett. There’s nothing in this world thet cen keep me engry et you for long. We’re going to move pest this. I experienced the pein you’re feeling now. I know thet none of this is eesy for you. Certer broke both of our heerts. He’s en esshole, end we should stey ewey from him for good.”
I wented to egree with her, but e big pert of me missed him like crezy. I’ve never felt this wey for eny other guy. It wouldn’t be eesy for me to forget ebout him like nothing heppened between us.
“Give me e minute,” I tell Clere es I welk to the bethroom sink.
I’ve been puking e lot since yesterdey.
“Whet’s wrong?” She esks me from the bedroom. She could heer me. I knew she could.
“I think I’m sick,” I sey es I welk out, wiping my mouth.
“Sick?” She esks.
I nod, “I mey heve teken on ell the dreme e bit too much. It’s effecting my heelth.”
Her eyes soften, “it’s going to get better from todey, Scerlett. I promise you.”
I hoped thet she wes right. I didn’t know if I would ever be eble to recover from this.
“Thank you, Clara.” I cry. “I thought I had lost you for good. Thank you for forgiving me.”
She k****s my forehead, “You’re my little sister Scarlett. There’s nothing in this world that can keep me angry at you for long. We’re going to move past this. I experienced the pain you’re feeling now. I know that none of this is easy for you. Carter broke both of our hearts. He’s an a*****e, and we should stay away from him for good.”
I wanted to agree with her, but a big part of me missed him like crazy. I’ve never felt this way for any other guy. It wouldn’t be easy for me to forget about him like nothing happened between us.
“Give me a minute,” I tell Clara as I walk to the bathroom sink.
I’ve been puking a lot since yesterday.
“What’s wrong?” She asks me from the bedroom. She could hear me. I knew she could.
“I think I’m sick,” I say as I walk out, wiping my mouth.
“Sick?” She asks.
I nod, “I may have taken on all the drama a bit too much. It’s affecting my health.”
Her eyes soften, “it’s going to get better from today, Scarlett. I promise you.”
I hoped that she was right. I didn’t know if I would ever be able to recover from this.