The Reborn

I groaned and rubbed my face when the banging from the front door persisted. People, if you are knocking at someone’s door and they don’t respond we have 4 situations:

1. They aren’t home.

2. They are busy doing other things.

3. They don’t want to be fucking bothered.

4. They are ignoring you.

I want to be left alone and I’m ignoring the persons from my door, but it’s really hard and I want to punch that fucker.

I opened my eyes and stared at the white ceiling debating what to do. I can keep ignoring that person and sleep or I will go and open the door like a polite person would. A very not-nice snort came from me as I turned around and covered my face with the white pillow.

Thank God, I’m not a polite person.

My eyes were closed and I was almost asleep when I heard a click from the door. A click as someone unlocked the door because I locked it last night.

Adrenaline filled my veins as my eyes snapped open. I was a little scared because I didn’t know who could be or what he/she wanted to do with me, but I was also damn curious and excited.

Oh, I waited for so long to kick someone’s ass.

Let’s do it then.

As a cue, a tall silhouette entered the room and closed the door slowly behind it. In less than a minute I had the figure pinned on the floor with its hands behind its back.

“What the fuck are you doing in my room?” I growled and tightened my hold on its wrists.

The person wined. “I only wanted to wake you up and let you know that today we have to figure out what’s wrong with you. And damn girl, you are very fast and strong.”

I gasped and let him go. “Oh my God! I’m sorry Iron, but you just sneaked in my room while I was sleeping and you are lucky that I haven’t kill you.”

He quickly jumped on his feet and brushed his clothes. “It’s fine. It’s my fault, but you still are very fast. Usually, when I do this, because you aren’t the only one who can sleep through a nuclear bomb, they don’t hear me and they scream when I jump on them, but that’s all.”

“I have fast reflexes.” I shrugged.

“It’s crystal clear that you have them. Now, put this on and let’s go. I’ll be waiting outside.” he said and tossed me a bag with clothes.

I scrunched my nose at this choice of clothes. There were a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and a dark purple blouse. I don’t like purple or simple shirts. They are too boring and this purple makes me to stand out and I don’t like it.

Maybe if I watch some crappy TV show I’ll feel a little better.

The remote was on the nightstand, right next to the bed so I jump on the bed on my tummy and took the remote. The TV opened on a news channel.

On the left side of the screen was a video of a black jeep which was on fire and on the right side was a picture with my face on it. The title was ‘Fallen in disgrace star, died on her way to jail.’

“Seventeen years old, Shadow Thunder of Moonlight, the daughter of the most known and the best warriors our world had in the last century was found dead near a forest from the Brightstorm region. What caused her death and others 2 people death, was a bomb placed inside the car they were traveling with. All 3 of them were heading to the place where the girl should have been punished for her heartless attacks and cruel deaths.”

Great. I’m officially dead and known as the disappointment of the family. And this stupid lady doesn’t know that it’s rude to talk shit about dead people?

“Fallen in disgrace? Heartless attacks? Cruel deaths?” I scoffed “Everybody loves me, I see.”

I love you.

I rolled my eyes. At last I love me. Well, most of the times.

Stupid people. This is one of the things I hate about our 21st century society. They are talking and judging people like they fucking know those people, when in reality are just big hypocrites. They are supporting all the ‘Be you’ thing, but they don’t want you to be you. They want you to be plain and ordinal. They won’t try to understand you and why you did what you did. They will just judge the appearance.

I closed the TV already tired and annoyed by what I see. Somehow, they got some pretty videos with me when I lost the control and killed all the men from the conference room. That wasn’t me. It could not be me the one from those videos. That girl does not look like me. She had black, wild and crazy eyes with a cruel smirk on her face. She was even laughing when one of those men tried to break free from her hold. But what scared me the most was when she looked right at the camera. In her eyes was nothing but pure evil that sends shivers down your spine.

That girl can’t be me.

She is you. She is me. She is us.

“No.” I said and almost pulled out the door from its place. “I’m ready.”

A hand was placed on my shoulder. “Are you okay?”

I wanted to laugh in his face. This is the stupidest question that someone could ask me right now. I wanted to yell in his face that no, I’m not okay, but I’m not going to break down in front of him. He may be good looking, but I don’t trust him.

“I’m fine despite of what it’s said on the news channel.” I said as we started to walk down the hall.

“Oh. I see that you heard what they said about you. Don’t take them serious. They don’t know about what are talking about. The same thing is said about every person that comes here. Most of them were send here because someone wanted to get rid of them definitely, so the stunt with the bomb is the most plausible one. If you are announced dead and your reputation is ruined, you won’t be able to go back without those hateful looks, harsh words and occasionally kicks. Raven planed this on purposed. He made sure that you can’t go back or anywhere else.”

“I figured it out already, but the question is why? Why he had to get rid of me so bad? What’s his plan?” I asked and looked at him.

He looks in deep thought. “We don’t know yet, but we will found out soon. All that we know is that he planed to get rid of you from the moment he saw your name on the lists with the new students.”

I shook my head. “But on that list was my human family name. How could he knew that it was me?”

“There aren’t too many persons with the name Shadow and he connected the dots. On the file was also a picture with you and the date of your birth. Your name, then your age and your appearance.”

I was glaring at the black marble floor because he is right. That fucker wanted to get rid of me right from the start.

“We are here.” he said making me to look up.

On the left was a black door with a needle on it and in front of the door, on the floor was also a needle. Panic slowly started to take over me.

“Why are we in front of a door with a needle on it? I don’t like needle. I hate them. I don’t want to see them and I don’t want to see one stuck in my skin.” I said fast with panic in my voice.

He chuckled and wrapped his left arm around my shoulders. “Got it. No needles. And we are in front of the doctor’s lab because he has to figure out what’s up.” he tapped my head when he said ‘what’s up’ and chuckled at his own joke.

Maybe if I wasn’t in this situation, I would laugh but right now I’m a little too panicked.

It was a good joke.

And you know that because you are so good at jokes.

Yes, I actually am. Wanna hear one?

Surprise me with your humor.

What animal has 5 legs?

*mental eyes roll* I don’t know.

A pitbull returning from a playground.

That’s not funny!

Fine. I have another one. What’s the most depressing thing?

Running out of Nutella!

Wrong. A failed suicide attempt.

You are so sick. You are out of your fucking mind and I want to get rid of you as fast as I can.

“Let’s go inside. I had enough with this little fucker.” I said and entered the lab.

The walls were a very pale blue and the room was full with different medical equipment, but I was staring at the little table with the needles on which was right next to me.

“Hello.”

My head snapped in the direction of the voice and my eyes widen. “YOU! I know you! You are the doctor that helped me to find my element. You are working for the elementars so what are you doing here?”

Doctor I-forgot-his-name was standing in a big leather chair, but he was walking around with the chair which is a little weird if you ask me.

Look who was talking.

“Doc Snow is one of our many people that want to help us and they support our cause. He is spying for us.” Iron said after he got inside and closed the door.

“I wish that we haven’t meet again in this situation, Shadow. From the moment I saw you, I knew that you will have an interesting and adventurous life, but I never thought that I’ll see you here.” doc said and kicked his feet on the floor, making the chair move with him. He stopped in front of me studying my face.

“Trust me, I wish to be in another place too, but life sucks.” I said with a shrug.

“That my dear, is very true. Go and take a seat on that bed and I will ask you some questions.”

Maybe we should kill him and Iron and escape. This is our chance.

I don’t want to escape. I want to get rid of you.

But you can’t.

The dark laugh I get used to, rang in my head. I feel my head shaking along with that sick laugh.

I rubbed my temples to ease the pain as I sit down. Doc stopped at 1 foot in front of me.

“Question numero 1: What’s wrong?”

He’s stupid or insane or he likes to piss me off.

“What do you mean with what’s wrong? You have to tell me what’s wrong with me!” I yelled at him and glared.

“Yes, but I need to know what is happening to you. What makes you lose your mind. What made you to kill those people.”

Should I tell him about the voice? What if he figures out that I’m a criminal and they kill me?

Don’t tell them. They will kill us.

I have to tell them.

No, you don’t. Act like you are perfectly fine and they will leave you alone.

But I don’t want them to leave me alone! I want to get rid of you! I want to stop being that sick killer!

YOU CAN’T. THIS IS WHO YOU ARE. ACCEPT IT AND MOVE ON.

The voice yelled in my head making the headache worst.

I have to tell them until is too late.

DON’T YOU DARE!

Another shock of pain hit my head. I can feel my whole skull shaking. I took a deep breath and told them everything.

“It may sound crazy, but there’s a voice in my head that keeps bugging me and telling me to kill people and sometimes takes over my body and kills people and is calling me names and I want it to stop a-and.....”

I was sweating like crazy and breathing like I was having an asthmatic attack because of the pain inside my skull.

“And now the voice is making you feel pain? It tried to stop you from telling us about it?”

DON’T.TALK.ANY.FURTHER.

I will fucking will because I’m tired of you!

The pain got worst. It felt like someone was inside my head and that person was trying to dig his way out through my skull.

I nodded my head slowly. I gripped my hair with my hands and bite my lips to stop the pain.

“This voice appeared in a moment when you were feeling a very intense emotion like sadness or emotional pain? And it’s taking over when you are feeling intense emotions like when you’re scared, sad or angry?”

The night when me and all the guys fought started to play in front of me, like the doc just pressed the replay button for some old video. The worst thing is that I’m not just seeing everything again. I’m also feeling everything again and it feels worst then the first time. All the feelings are back here: pain, sadness, betrayal, anger, disappointment.

I tugged at my hair and I felt the metallic taste of the blood in my mouth from biting my lips to hard. “YES.” I yelled out in pain.

“I know what’s wrong with you, kiddo.”

I barely heard the doctor’s voice. It sounded like it was somewhere far away or like a whisper. His voice was covered by mine and Black’s yelling. Suddenly, I felt a little sting on my right arm and slowly the shouting and the pictures in front of my eyes started to fade until I saw my dark blue jeans. Slowly, I untangled my hands from my hair and stopped biting my lips. My breath was still shaky when I raised my head to look at doc.

He patted my head. “There you go. Do you feel better?”

My head was still hurting, but it was bearable and a lot more better than before.

I let out a shaky breath. “Yeah. A lot better.”

“Do you want me to tell you now what’s wrong with you or you want to come back later, after you calm down?”

“Tell me now when I’m already panicked and if you tell me later I’ll start panicking again. Just tell me and let’s end it.” I said trying to focus on my jeans but my eyes are a little blurry and unfocused.

“Fine. I can’t place a diagnostic on you until we get on terms with that voice of yours, but I know the reason why the voice appeared.”

Do I ever told you how much I hate when people stop talking in the middle of the fucking explanation? Well, I hate it so fucking much.

Anger started to bubble up in me. “I suggest you to keep talking.”

He stared at me and nodded. “I was right. All the emotions that you felt when the voice appeared where negative ones or how I call them, dark ones. Negative emotions bring in us negative thoughts along with the negative side of us. So dark emotions bring in us dark thoughts along with the dark side of us.”

I stared at him trying to understand what is he trying to say, but I wined like a kid when I couldn’t figure it out. “Look. My head hurts like fuck, my emotions are all over the place so please stop talking in riddles and just tell me. When I’m feeling bad I can be pretty stupid.”

“You really are completely clueless.” he said rubbing his chin thoughtful.

“Yes, I am.” I said exasperated and I wanted so bad to not what’s going on with me. I’m so curious and sick of that stupid voice making my life a living hell.

“If I’m not wrong, which usually I’m not, you had a dark presence in you which can only mean one thing. You are half dark.”

Now, I was resting my head in my hand which was supported by my leg and let me tell you something. I have a sharp elbow.

I looked at him and blinked before it clicked and my jaw dropped. “Wait. Are you trying to say that I’m half dark and half elementar which means I’m a hybrid?”

A grin appeared on his pale face. “You are smart even when you head is a little busted. Yup. That’s what I was trying to say.”

I sighed and rubbed my face tired.

What’s next? I’ll found out that I’m half elf or half unicorn?