Chapter 3 ~ I Kind of Deserve That
Roman’s POV ~
I got sent on an errand for Perseus.. go find out why Mark is unreachable. Because just call me Go-fer! I was out, anyway.. but that’s not the point! Things have been strained between us since the Felicia episode. So, for now, I just avoid him. Which isn’t the mature thing.. but I’m still licking my wounds.
I spotted his truck at the gym and waltzed through the door in righteous anger! I call him out about his block and phone. Then accuse him of being too busy with a whore. Only to find out she’s not a whore.. or maybe she is.. but she’s my mate.
My mate! I don’t even know if I’m ready for a mate now. I don’t know if I trust a woman now. And what do I do? I run.. Beau is making me lose my mind..
I shift, as soon as I am out the door, and run! I don’t slow for about twenty miles. I ran away from our mate. After calling her an awful name. I didn’t know why I was so angry at Mark.. until I realized it was Beau. He was possessive and jealous, with no clue what was happening.
We ran for a couple hours and I realized I needed to talk to Perseus. I linked him that I wanted to talk to him. He told me “You know where I am” He always has to be a smartass! He could’ve just said okay. But, nope. Too few words for Perseus!
I make it to the pack house, slipping into a pair of shorts… I make my way to the office. Perseus doesn’t even look up from the paperwork he’s dealing with. “Did you find Mark? Did he tell you why his link is down?”
I sit down and say “I found him. He was at the gym.. looked like he had been sparring with some girl sitting with him. I guess they were sparring.. they were both sweaty. I yelled at him about it. Told him you wanted to see him.. and I may have called the girl a whore.”
He sat there a minute and asked if I apologized. I shook my head and he said “You call a random girl a whore and you didn’t apologize? What is going on with you?” I stood and said “You called Felicia a whore! Did you apologize?”
He shrugs “Fuck no I didn’t! She is a whore! Tried and proven! It’s not an insult if it’s the truth! Is this girl a whore? Do you know her?” He had me there! And now, I get to tell him the best part. Hopefully, he leaves my head intact..
I tell him “No. I don’t know. She smelled pure. Perseus.. she’s our mate! She’s our mate, and I ran away!” He growled “NO! First you called her a whore! Then you RAN away! Who is she? Where does she live?”
I growled back at him “I don’t know, Pers! I ran away after I called her a horrible name! She probably hates me!” He started laughing.. “Oh My Goddess! You are going to have to grovel, if you want her to accept you! Oh! With that look, you are wrestling with whether you’re going to reject her or not.. aren’t you? You’re an asshole, Roman! I swear to the Goddess, if our mate rejects ME because of the pain you cause.. you will no longer be my brother! I want my True Mate! And only her! You had better figure your shit out and fast!”
Mark knocked and we both said “Come in” Once he sat down, Perseus said “Never block your link again! I needed you earlier.. but I had Jeff investigate. There’s been some rogue activity off to the northwest. They set camp a little close to our border.. and didn’t bank their campfire! We had a brush fire go almost out of control!”
Mark cleared his throat and said “I’m sorry, Alpha. I didn’t realize I had it blocked.. I was at gym.. sparring with one of my students. She’s gotten really good the last two weeks! Had me tagging out in under five minutes!”
I asked “Who is she?” His head spun on me and said “Someone you hurt! Her exact words were ‘Macie told me I had more than one mate.. And one of them doesn’t want me!’ So, you tell me! Is she your mate?”
Perseus answered him “She is our mate.. yes! Now, who is she and where does she live?” Mark looked between us.. first Percy and then Me. He finally responds “She’s Sadie O’Connell’s adopted daughter. Her name is Paulina.. but I call her shortstop. She ain’t no bigger than a minute. Explosive little thing! I don’t know where she lives. We don’t ask.. you know my gym specializes in training women in defense.. because they usually come from abusive situations.. right!? Well, Shortstop is no different. I don’t know her story… but I know she’s hiding. I imagine you could find her at Sadie’s diner, tomorrow.. I heard she inherited it when Sadie passed away.”
I look over at Perseus and say “We can go tomorrow and I will apologize. I want her to know I really am sorry! I shouldn’t have taken my anger out on her.” He nods and goes back to his paperwork, after dismissing Mark. I decided I may as well get my own paperwork done. I have screwed off enough for one day.
We had been working in silence for a couple hours. I sighed and said “Perseus. I’m sorry. I got impatient and let some people get in my head. I got to thinking our mate might be dead.. or already mated to someone. Then, I got scared.. and I didn’t want to be alone, anymore. I cared about Felicia.. she was always looking after me. Dropping everything to see me.. It made me feel good.. and it made me think maybe sharing a mate isn’t for me. I guess I wanted to be selfish for once.. even though it never felt quite right. I do know it would kill me to see our fated mate every day and not be able to be with her!”
Pers had sat silently… listening to me. When I finished, he replied “I am upset with you, Roman! We have known our whole lives, we would share a mate. We have shared everything from the date of conception. We shared an egg. We shared a sac.. in a womb, we shared. You hold a third of my soul.. as I hold a third of yours! Only our Goddess given mate can complete our souls! If you reject her.. a piece of yourself will always be missing. You will never feel complete. A piece of our mate’s soul would always be missing. She will always yearn for it to be filled.. it will hurt her every day. Ask yourself, is that what you want? For the woman created specifically for us? Because, if it is, then reject her. But know.. that I will not! I will take her far away from here. From you.. and from this pack. You will have your wish, brother. You won’t have to share anything else with me. You can be Alpha without me. She is my mate.. and I will give everything up.. if it means she could be happy!”
I sat there shocked. Thinking over everything he said.. I realized it isn’t what I want at all.. I told him “No! That isn’t what I want! I want her to be happy! I want all three of us to be happy! We will be happy!! I just have to get her to forgive me!”
He laughed. “Yeah… I’m sure glad it isn’t me.. I’m not even helping you clean up this mess!” I laughed with him and said “Yeah! I kind of deserve that!”