The Carrero Contract - Selling Your Soul (Mafia Romance)

Light flickers painfully through the gap in my lashes as I try to open my eyes. Completely disorientated and aware of noise and
chaos around me, but it all seems so very far away. Strangely calm and floating inside a weird, weightless bubble of blurred
reality, with sounds muted and distant.
I reach out to touch my head, disembodied with a heavy limb, aching so badly all over. I feel like my skull has been split wide
open and throbs gnawingly, but a warm hand stops me mid-air. Bringing me to a focus.
‘Hush now there, darlin’, just relax. Momma Jo got you. You take it easy young lady and let me check your stats like a good girl.
Don’t you move, ya’ hear. I won’t be just a tick.’ The caring honey laden voice of a southern woman washes over me and stills
my movements soothingly. I flinch when her feathery touch awakens my arm, as though somehow it hadn’t been part of me until
that second, and my limb tingles as I drift in and out of this strange fuzzy haze. Disembodied in my odd foggy world.
I have no idea where I am or what is going on. I can’t see properly, a sleepy blurring mist of movement as I try to focus and get
the sensation that I am lying on a bed. I cannot be sure if that’s what is happening, although I am aware I am laying out flat and
it’s not uncomfortable. I can make out forms, maybe people moving in front of me, and yet I have no clue what I am looking at.
Everything disconnected, so far away and heaviness holds me prisoner in my strange state.
The harsh blinding brightness clicks off with a loud noise beside my left ear, amplified and echoey. It makes me flinch again and
that voice comes back to me in a gentle wave once more.
‘Is that better honey? Lamp is a bit bright and you really should try and rest. It’s after two a.m.’
I can’t even make out the face hovering over me, despite its closeness, and the new shadows and darkness from what I
presume is her switching off the lights for me, just makes it harder to see what’s going on. I am trying so hard to blink and open
my eyes fully, they feel like they are glued shut and only as little slits with no real ability to see much.
A larger form further back appears, standing out in a white top and dark bottoms, seeming bigger than the blue haze of the
woman nearer me and I can tell it’s male. It has an eerie large presence that draws my consciousness towards it like a magnet.
It’s as though my mind seeks refuge in whatever it is.
‘Is she aware of what’s going on?’ The voice seems so very familiar to me, husky, masculine and warm, but I can’t keep my eyes
open as I try to hone in on the shape. I can’t pinpoint why it’s so familiar to me. Fatigue swimming in as it takes over and I try to
hold onto the reality in which my brain is badly connecting. I am so confused and trying hard to grasp any sort of understanding
to how I got here.

‘She’s still in and out. Was a nasty, big old bump to her head, and with all that booze we had to flush outta her system, she’s just
struggling to make sense of things right now. She be alright. Just let her sleep it off in the best place for her, Mr Carrero.’
My brain perks up at the name, brain connecting, clawing for recognition of the voice. It could be Mico, or it could be Alexi,
maybe it could be Gino for all I can fathom right now. I just don’t know. Nothing makes sense, or even why they would be here
with me in this crazy place. I am so out of whack, floating on a weird cloud of strange and yet my body won’t respond. I am trying
so hard to see; eyelids heavier now and no longer under my control as they blank everything out. Fighting to keep them open
marginally.
‘Does she know I’m here?’ The voice is so far off and low it’s almost inaudible. Deep, sensual, male, Carrero, but
indistinguishable as to whether it’s Alexi or his cousin when it’s this far off and surrounded by beeps, clips, whirs, and noise,
making everything blend into one.
‘Well, she has one mighty concussion and a hangover from hell, so it’s hard to tell. Now hush up and let the girl sleep. She will
open them pretty blues again soon enough, and be wishing she hadn’t downed that boat full of booze to do away with whatever
this little thing was trying to drown.’ She laughs merrily. A throaty and deep bellyache of a laugh but there is something kind
about it and it’s the last thing I hear as I fall back into weightless darkness at an alarming speed. Trying to cling on desperately
with a limbless body as I will myself not to fall down the rabbit’s hole. I struggle to stay in my conscious state and grip onto
flickers of noise and movement instead.
I don‘t want to fall into oblivion. I want to get up and figure out what the hell is going on. How I even got here and what’s
happened to me.
I have no idea at all. My memory is hazy and filled with odd images, flashes of dark, light, nonsense and breaks in thoughts. I
blink hard again as I try to get them open once more and realise, lifting my hand to touch my face, that I have something over my
nose and mouth. Feeling out the air tube under my nostrils that’s blowing a gentle breeze across my clammy skin and the
distraction is enough to bring me back to the present once more.
I must be in a hospital, but I have no idea how I got here or even why. The last thing I can really pull together in my mind is being
drunk and trying to get into Alexi’s apartment. How drunk and stupid I was. All I can visualise is waiting for him on his floor and
drinking so much more booze than my body could handle. No wonder I feel completely headless, maybe I am still wasted as hell.
I wonder if I passed out?

I feel wretched, try to sit up, straining to move with soft grunts, internally fighting to throw off the blanket of darkness holding me
down. Sighing and giving up with the heaviness of my body right now as another wave of fatigue hits me hard and threatens to
pull me under. Still not attached in any way and I try and clear my throat to speak out as a last-ditch attempt to make them aware
I am with them in the room. I hate feeling like I am a floating entity and invisible somehow.
Lifting my hands to rub my eyes open and clear the cotton wool surrounding my brain clumsily as heavy fingers twitch and slump
on my cheek, lacking grace. Nothing is real or lucid and I could be high on drugs for all I know. Nothing is coordinated.
‘Don’t try and get up, just sleep. Shhhhhh.’ It’s that voice again, gentle soothing, caring and I know it can’t be Alexi. He would
never sound this way when it came to me—the woman he loathes. The woman he takes pride in breaking at every turn. Alexi
would not piss on me if I were on fire.
It has to be Mico, he’s the only compassionate one in his cousin’s world and I relax and not fight him as his hand cups one of
mine. Bringing warmth to my limb that up until his touch felt numb and cold still. I want to be able to just get with reality and look
at him, ask him why I’m here, what’s going on, but nothing works, and I am locked brutally inside my own weary head.
I can’t move or roll in any way, so weighted and achy and ready to fall out of orbit with every inhale. I can’t seem to stay awake.
Being dragged backwards over and over into the quiet, and I am losing the energy to fight to stay here.
‘Cam, relax and rest. You’re going to be okay. I would never let anything happen to you.’ He soothes me huskily, a gentle fanning
on my cheek of his breath as he leans close to whisper to me. The soft touch of alien heat as fingertips trail my temple and my
face tenderly. The touch which ends all fight in me, almost as though he has some powerful magic, and like slipping silently from
the surface of the water—I let go, fully submerging.
It’s all I hear as I succumb to the gentle waves lapping over my lifeless form and buries me in the still silence of nothingness.
I wake up gasping for air, panic-stricken as my heart hammers through my chest and my body springs alert in clammy
awareness. I sit upright with speed and a force that yanks the tube from my face harshly and makes me yelp as the drain in my
arm tugs savagely in synchronised timing. Arm and nose simultaneously stinging with a sharpness that makes me feel nauseous
right from the depths of my churning stomach. I am panting from the nightmare which ripped me out of slumber and completely
disorientated with my surroundings.
I seem to be in a small room, filled with moonlight and shadows, breathing hard and sweating as the last fading dregs of my
dream slip away, and my view comes into focus clearly, to calm me. It’s still dark and I jump, insides somersaulting, when a tall

looming figure moves from the window and turns towards me sharply, casting a shadow that hits me with a huge déjà vu and I
recoil in terror. My skin goosebumps all over.
‘Alexi?’ It’s out without thought, body draining of blood as cold fear grips my spine, trembling voice and tears prickle as he moves
closer to me. Stupid reactions hit me before sense does and I try to make a dash off the bed to get away from him. Clambering
fitfully and awkwardly, so afraid, so traumatised by the memories of my dream and what he is to me.
The monster who haunts me.
The monster who pushed me to hold a gun to my head and end it all.
I remember everything now. I know why I am here, and what Alexi made me do to myself in a bid to end my pain.
I shot myself in the head!
Except? ... I can’t have.
I’m still here. I am breathing.
Maybe I’m dead and this is my personal hell? It proves he was always the devil as he stands before me now, on the other side.
My tormentor for an eternity.
I feel completely sick as nausea consumes me and churns my body inside out with a weakening lurch.
‘Camilla calm down ... it’s me ... it’s Mico. Stop!’ The light flicks on over my head as he hits the lamp and I’m dazzled by
brightness, stopped in my tracks by him illuminating the room around us. Half hanging off my bed in a hospital gown as he clings
to my arm to stop me face palming the floor. Desperately holding my writhing body as I stop bucking and fighting to run and
realise it’s not the devil himself after all.
I hold still with paused breath and frozen fear as my brain catches up and connects the dots. Seeing him, taking in the room and
face, seeing no one else here that would hurt me right now. I recoil my tight and stiff limbs and start to relax a little, breathing
heavily to self-calm the waves of anxiety-ridden panic, body pulsating and clammy, as they start to slowly disperse.
I allow him to pull me back onto the bed carefully and cautiously, he’s being overly gentle but firm. Eyeing him up like a deer
caught in the headlights and still so coiled to flee.
My heart rate and lungs are pounding in unison as I drag in air in a bid to seem less hysterical.

‘I’m sorry.’ It comes out with a wave of tears, emotion hitting me hard. So exhausted suddenly, and distraught in the blink of an
eye. My body sags with both relief and sheer weakness. Not fit for anything, let alone a fight or flight response as my heart still
jackhammers in my chest. I grimace as he rights me, aching body and all, and my head hurts like crazy, more so than it did. A
banging drum of ache going off like a pulse in the back of my skull.
‘Don’t be. You have had a rough few hours. How’s the head?’ He nods at my head and I automatically lift my hand to touch the
one spot that hurts worse, right at the centre back where I am shocked to find I have a lump the size of an egg.
It’s a complete shock to me.
‘What the hell? How did I get a ...’ I trail off as something else dawns on me, mind rambling over newly found memories and it
blurts out instead.
‘Why am I not dead?’
I held a gun to my head and pulled the trigger with every ounce of decisiveness in me. I didn’t hesitate and put it right to my
temple. I intended to end it all.
How does that translate to lying in a hospital with a banged head?
Mico pauses for a second and looks to the open door, his expression cagey for a moment, leaning in so as not to be heard and
lowers his voice.
‘Gun jammed, and the bullet stuck in the barrel. Alexi pushed you back to get the gun out of your hand and knocked you for six
into the concrete wall. We thought he had killed you.’
His hushed tone and serious frown tell me that this is not a joke or a dream. I am not floating in the afterlife or hallucinating in a
coma.
Everything just drains from me, the realisation of what I tried to do, how low I sunk. And yet ...
‘Why did he try to stop me?’
It’s the burning question in the forefront of my mind. Despite everything I can remember, my foolish heart still clings on to a flicker
of something, and I inwardly scowl at my weakness. I hate myself for even thinking about him at this moment.
Didn’t he want me gone?

Wasn’t he the one pushing and pushing and goading me to break? Who stood there and did nothing to alter what I was doing?
He had to know what I was planning, it was obvious.
He doesn’t deserve to dwell in my mind and thoughts. I need to put him where he belongs for all eternity. In hell with his sadistic
ways.
‘He’s a son of a bitch Camilla, but not a completely heartless one. Alexi wanted to end your connection; not watch you die. He
never wanted that.’ Mico looks away as he speaks, something in that face, but I don’t know him well enough to translate it. He
seems uneasy and unable to really look at me and I shake it away, along with the visual of that cold bastard peering at me from
inside my own head.
I blink around my surroundings instead, trying to free myself and focus on anything that is not Alexi Carrero. Taking note of the
sterile surroundings instead.
I guess the fact we seem to be in a regular hospital means they were told I knocked myself out and never mentioned the gun
incident. It would explain his apprehension at being heard. It’s not the private one I was in last time, so I am guessing I was
rushed to emergency with only the mention that I had banged my head while plastered on cocktails of booze.
I know better than to mention the gun either. Last thing I need is being put on suicide watch and have a psych trailing my
recovery. I had that once before, when my injuries from Rick seemed self-inflicted. I knew even then never to open my mouth
and let the truth come out. It only muddies the waters and lands you in shit.