The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

196 The breaking point … Lyla to If anyone thinks I am calmly processing the revelation that Nanny is my mother , let me assure you I AM NOT ! I havent reached that level of maturity yet , nor do I care to pretend otherwise .

I am furious ! Every nerve in my body is burning with anger , it seems like all the tiny molecules that make up every part of me is boiling so much that Im practically laden with the anger I feel .

Forget everything I told you earlier about calmly arriving at the temple , being gently ushered in by Terra , Nannys best friend and politely asking Nanny if shes , my mother .

That scenario ? Thats a lie ! A fickle mirage , a façade that will never happen .

The truth is , I am the highest level of pissed livid should fit it more .

I am not riding in a taxi to Golden Gates Pack because I cant afford such luxury .

Instead , Im stuck on a crowded train to Golden Gates , doing everything I can to keep my anger in check .

But its hard .

Especially with the mother and son sitting next to me , giggling and showering each other with loud , exaggerated kisses .

Their happiness feels like salt in an open wound , a painful reminder of everything Ive never had and will likely never get .

I was shaking with anger , so much so that I was a minute away from driving this train .

pa Finally , I arrived at Golden Gate Park and picked up a cab to the Moon Temple .

As soon as I reached it , I stormed into the temple , my heart was pounding with rage and heartbreak .

The temple was quiet , serene as it always seemed in the stories , Nanny had told me .

I followed the faint hum of voices echoing through the halls , leading me to the courtyard where a group of women sat in a circle , laughing at something .

My eyes went wild as I scanned their faces , searching for my target .

I finally found her .

She was sitting amid the circle of women , laughing , carefree , as if she hadnt just destroyed her daughters entire world .

It infuriated me .

My rage pushed me .

I marched forward and it didnt help that I had heels on , so I practically sounded like a baby thunder roaring .

The women turned to me , most of them looked familiar 1 had seen them at the Harvest Moon Festival .

Most of them looked startled but at this point , I didnt care I reached Nanny and grabbed her arm , yanking her to her feet , and tightening my hold on her .

She looked both surprised and I 10-26 196 The breaking point ….

Is it true ? I barked ; my voice was trembling with fury .

Her face contorted with confusion as she searched my face not before looking around warily , as if she wished this was not happening right here in the presence of the other women .

Lyla , what … IS IT TRUE ? I shouted .

All these years … all this time … why didnt you tell me ? The courtyard fell silent , the other women were staring curiously at us .

Nannys eyes widened as understanding dawned on them .

The colour drained from her features as she stared at me .

She knew .

She took a step backwards , her hands raised placatingly , Lyla , please … calm down .

Lets talk about this .

Dont you dare tell me to calm down ! I shouted , my voice echoing off the walls .

You lied to me ! Youve lied to me my entire life .

Why didnt you tell me ? Why did I have to find out like this ? Her shoulders slumped and she let out a shaky sigh .

I didnt lie to you , Lyla .

I kept the truth from you to protect you .

I dry laugh escaped my lips .

Protect me ? I scoffed .

From what exactly ? From yourself , you mean ? Thats all youve ever done , isnt it ? Everything is always about you .

Youre so selfish , you never cared about what I needed ! 2 Lyla , thats not true, she protested , reaching for me .

Everything I did , I … Everything you did ruined my life ! I yelled again .

Do you know where I should be right now ? I should be celebrating my wedding with Nathan .

I should be happy ! tears rolled down my cheeks .

But because of you , Im not .

Instead , Im here , finding out Im a bastard .

That my whole life has been a lie ! A murmur rippled through the women before Terra Nannys best friend came forward .

She had a concerned expression on her face as she came towards me slowly .

Lyla , please … I know youre hurt and all but please can you take this somewhere private as you know this is a temple and … No ! I whirled to face , Terra .

Did you know too ? Did everyone know except me ? My eyes swept the women watching , noting that some of them averted their gazes whilst the others looked on with confusion .

Of course , you did .

You all did .

Dont talk to me that way , Lyla ! Terra snapped .

I dont care if you have issues but you will respect this temple .

You cant come in here , foaming with rage and expect us to let you ? Are you a child ? Why are you throwing tantrums ? Terra ! Nanny tried to hold her friend but she seemed angry now .

You think youre entitled to an apology ? Have you considered the sacrifices and every other thing that happened ? It was casy for her to do away with you and make sure you never existed , but here you are , shouting and screaming at her without hearing from her first .

You cry people judge you all the time , arent you doing the same ? 10:26 196 The breaking point … I paused , staring at her with annoyance .

I hated Terra .

I hated how everything she said struck a chord in my heart .

Stay out of this , Terra ! I snapped finally .

This is between me and her .

I turned to Nanny , her face was pale , and her lips were trembling .

Lyla , I never wanted to hurt you .

I swear on everything I hold dear .

I was young , I didnt know what I was doing , and all I knew was , that I wanted you .

I loved you from the point I held you in my hands , up until this moment , I still love you .

Youre my precious gift .

WHAT !!! one of the women shouted so loudly that we turned in the direction .

When we turned , it was Priestess Superior , Priestess Diana .

Her eyes had grown so large that I was afraid it would pop out .

She walked up to us, scanning from me to Nanny and back .

Miriam , what are you talking about ? Is it what I thought I heard true ? Nanny turned .

Yes , Lyla is my daughter .

Another ripple went through the women .

For a moment , I forgot about my anger and turned to stare at them .

Werent they overreacti But how ? one of the younger women in the crowd asked Is it even possible ? As if on cue , Mother Liora wobbled in , her face was wrinkled in annoyance and she had a stick in her hand .

She went straight to Priestess Diana .

Youre here and the temple is rowdy and unruly ? Are you aware that your star pupil , your so called gift from the goddess is a mother and has given birth ? Priestess Diana narrowed her eyes at Mother Liora as if the more she stared , the more the truth became visible .

All of you , leave this courtyard , immediately , Mother Liora shouted with surprising strength .

Immediately , all the women dispersed except for Priestess Diana , Terra and another woman who had a contented smile on her face .

That includes you , Jemima and Diana , Mother Liora glared at them .

Leave here immediately .

Priestess Diana wanted to complain but decided against it .

Finally , she left , leaving just me , Terra and Mother Liora .

Mother Liora took Terras hand and both of them walked out too , leaving us alone in the courtyard .

As soon as they left , Nanny took several steps to me .

There is no excuse for keeping this away from you .

Is that the only thing you did ? I snapped .

You wiped my memory off , lied to me and let me believe you were someone you werent .

Youve never cared about whats best for me .

Youve only ever cared about whats best for you ! Lyla , please listen … she began again .

You have all the chances in the world to tell me .

All the opportunities to tell me but you let me suffer these years thinking the woman I thought was my mother hated me .

gGosh We were together the most , Nanny .

We spent the major part of our lives together and you couldnt tell 196 The breaking point … me .

Lyla … she tried again .

I dont want to hear it .

Im done listening to you .

Im done with you .

She reached out finally grabbing my hand as she trembled .

Lyla , dont say that .

I love you .

Ive always loved you .

You dont love me .

If you loved me , you wouldve told me the truth .

You would have been honest with me .

I WAS ASHAMED ! she yelled , as tears rolled down her cheeks in torrents .

I was 19 when I got pregnant , Lyla to make it worse , he had a mate , he was married and I thought if I could keep it away from you , that the guilt would leave me and maybe you wouldnt hate me as much …