One Sided Love

Kate

'wow... she is soooo beau... botiful....., im her big sister?' emma asked in her child language

I replied 'yes my love you are her big sister ... n its beautiful ... ok.'

Emma make a oh face n said 'whats her name.. mama'

I replied 'I named her after your mother Emily ... her name is Aria Emily Robbins...'

Emma smile' its so sweet... so emma called her Aria'

I replied ' yup baby called her anything you want... (aria started to cry a little I hold her n start rocking her) do you wanna hold her'

She beemed with happiness' plz plssss can I hold aria'

I replied ' yeah sure come here we have to be very careful otherwise she will cry more n even get hurt'

I looked at my both daughters proudly ...emma was so happy to have a sister.... atleast some one is happy for aria...

Aria start crying loudly n bring whole house echo with her crys... I told emma its her feed time

I undo my brest buttons n led aria feed my aching breast... emma looked so confused.... n then she start giggling loudly... I asked her what happen

She said she is eating bobo..'

I laughed ' small babies have food from mama bobos'

I felt Alex standing at the outside of nursery... he looked so intense n so quite that I dont know how long he was standing...

Emma saw alex n ran to him n said ' daddy ... Aria is eating mama bobo'

Alex looked disturbed n said 'Emma its your bed time ... why are you not in bed'

Emma looked a little embarrassed n scared of Alex tone ... even im a little he never used this tone with her

I said ' Alex I told her to sleep a little late its really ok... she already has slept till evening...'

He replied 'kate its all about routine... everything should be in order in emma life... otherwise her day will become hectic... soon she is going to start school I don't want to disturb her routine... n you know that well aside from any distractions from you life emma should be first priority... no one else'

And there is Alex golden words.... it still pain me a lot but I dont show it because I know he will use these words again... he called Aria distraction he have no idea what he is missing in his life

I replied' of course Alex I never forget it... cause you keep reminding me'

He looked ashamed but then he cover it with dominant expression n then he said to emma to get to the bed...

Emma hug me n Aria n then went to bed.

I looked at my little princesses n pray that Alex also start falling in love with ger like I did with her fir the first time...

A tear fell to my cheeks when I realized not for once he saw her face.

Alex

Daddy why I can't go to Aria... im her sister' emma pout n said

I kissed her forehead n said 'its, late you have to sleep so your mama n ar... baby'

I don't know why I can't say her name... n it pains for some reason

Emma said ' she name is Aria Emily Robbins'

N there it is... kate name her maiden name after Emily ... it truly touched me n some how make me anguish for no other reason... thats why I snapped at kate when i can't control to go there n looked at her n Aria I replied' Her name not she name is... ok time to bed... close you're eyes'

I went to see where is kate ... when I see she was with my parents... dont know When they came....

my mom scold me

'Alex why didn't you tell me Kate was alone.... we must have shorten our trip'

My father replied ' Yes Alexander thats was very irresponsible thing'

I said ' I know what I did was wrong n im extremely sorry but I never know kate will go to labor soon'

Mom said 'well forget about everything... I,want to see my grandchild... n why there is no celebration in this house?'

She must have seen my n kate face n then shake herr head in disappointment....

Kate broke the moment' I will bring aria to you'

With that kate gone n bring awake Aria..

Kate

Alex mom take Aria from me n kissed her head n said 'look at her she is so cute... she just looked like Alex ....'

I saw Alex flinched whenever Aria resemblance to him is brought up... n it pains me...

Alex parents bring some gifts for Aria n im become happy that at least Aria will be loved by alexs parents

After an hour Alex parents say there goodbye n left.

It left me, Alex n sleeping Aria.

Alex said ' You are coming to bed'

I replied' You are going to sleep in my room?' Alex always have sex with me when he slept in my room n he knows he cant sleep with me so thats why I asked

He replied ' And why not... I know I have to wait for 6 weeks but is there a issue I can't sleep in your room?'

I replied ' no problem... let me put her in bed'

Alex n me was settled down in bed but we not said a word.... but Alex was spooning me from behind... n I know this is his way of saying sorry... after some hour I heard in baby monitor that Aria was crying loudly... I quietly get out of Alex embrace so that he cant get wake... I went to check my little princess... after changing n feeding her... I went to my room... when I saw Alex was wake n looking disturbed...

He said 'Is she keep doing this whole night'

Akex asked grumpily... I replied 'I hope not I had put her in sleep... but you know babies keep parent up all night

He said 'well I have office tommorow.. you are tired... soon emma is going to start her school.. n it will disturb her sleep too..n damn this baby monitor is so loud that I cant sleep right now'

I looked Alex shockingly... clearly he knows baby cry at any time but he is being unreasonable

I replied' I will try hard not to disturb you again... n im sure she is in deep sleep.. n for the baby monitor I can lower is volume n keep it with me... so that only I can listen'

Akex looked uncomfortable n try to speak but just nod... n with that I lie down on bed n turn my back to Alex...

He try to come closer but when he looked my rigid back he sigh n lie back to his side...

Aria started to cry again after 3 hours when I looked at time it was 4 o clock in the morning... since the volume of monitor is low so only I can hear ... n I hope Alex is not disturb otherwise he will become grumpy again n blame my little girl there...

After feeding her I went to my room n found alex coming out of the bathroom... he just looked at me with out saying he went to his side of bed.... looks like he was awake when Aria cry..... I don't know how to make things simpler anymore. 00000000