My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance)

My Love My Hatred Chapter 216

They always say, if there's hatred, there's love. Love and hate are the same feelings, one is positive while one is negative. I hated Lance so much, with all my heart, and in my hatred, I didn't realize there was likeliness. I didn't realize there was love in our hatred. Maybe I was touched by his love for me, because I never had anyone love me before?

I went back to my room and sat on the bed. I suddenly remembered the envelope Lance gave me. It was the only thing I brought with me. I took out my luggage and then pulled the envelope out from the pocket.

It was a white envelope. I

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recognized Lance's handwriting on top of the envelope.

'To Jennie Gomez, my love.' It

wrote.

With shaking hands, I opened the envelope and took a piece of paper out. It wasn't money, all this time I thought it was just a cheque or money for me, but it was a letter from Lance. He wrote it on his own. Dear Jennie,

Hey, I don't know why I am writing this but I want to tell you something. Actually, I don't know where to start because I feel like I have a lot of things to tell you. A lot of apologies to make.

I know all of the revenges you have taken on me are what I deserve. I always know that you are the innocent one, you are the last person who has to go through all of these nightmares. But

just couldn't stop myself from hating you, I just couldn't. And I regret it, I regret ruining your peaceful life and making you a bad person.

You were just a 5 years old girl who just lost her father when you first came into the Mason's mansion. You were abandoned by your grandparents after your father passed away so your mother had no choice but to bring you with her into the Mason's family. You once told me that your father loved you so much

that you wouldn't find another man who will love you as much as your father anymore. It was then I knew your heart was broken when your father passed

away.

I don't feel sorry for you because hated you so much back then. I just wanted to see you suffer, so that I will feel better. I could have kicked you out

A letter from.. of the Mason's mansion back then but I didn't, I wanted to keep you around and torture you slowly. Your mother has never helped you whenever I bully you, because she knew that if she helped you, she would indirectly provoke me and I might kick her out. She knew it.

You have suffered for so many years because of me and I regret it so much. I want you to know that if I could turn back time and undo everything, would. I will treat you better than that and we wouldn't be like this today. You could have lived your life happily like other girls, yet I made that impossible for you.

I love you so much and I regret everything I have done to you. I want to use the rest of my life to make it up for you but I know you wouldn't let me. You just want to get rid of me. A letter from...

I know you were suffering when you were with me but I just couldn't let you go and I know I am selfish. That's all because I was afraid to lose you.

Thave been thinking what my life would be like after you left me and I

couldn't seem to imagine my life without you. Because you are my happiness, my everything.

But I am your nightmare, so I am letting you go now. You must be very happy to finally get to leave me because you have tried your best to leave me for the past 20 years.

I will take care of Lexi. I will tell her

that her mommy loves her so much. You will be her one and only mommy wouldn't let her forget you. I know deep in your heart you love her too, just as much as do. She is the best gift you have ever given to me and I will love her

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with everything I have. I will never let any man break her heart like how I break yours. I will dress her like a little princess everyday just like how you wished you could dress yourself when you were a kid. I will try my best to make her happy.

You are the most beautiful woman!

have ever met in my life and I am in love with everything about you. I want you to know that you look the prettiest when you smile, although you barely smile when you are with me. So, never forget how beautiful you are, Jennie. I wish I told you that. I wish I told you so many things you don't know about yourself.

Even though you don't owe me anything, I want you to promise me something.

Promise me you will try to love again. I never want you to fall in love

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with another man but I want you to be happy. If you ever find a man who loves your and would treat you like a queen, hope that you will try to love again wish that he will take care of you, make you happy and do things that I couldn't do for you.

Promise me you will be stronger. Don't ever let someone push you down and take advantage of your kindness. Promise me you will stand up for yourself whenever there are people like me who want to hurt you. I hope that

you can protect yourself. And promise me you will stay away from people like me. You will only get hurt again in the

end.

I couldn't stop thinking about all those bad things I have done to you and Tam so sorry for that. Seeing you in pain is the image I will never be able to

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forget. I don't want to see you in pain anymore.

I am letting you go, Jennie.

You are finally free from me. Now, take a deep breath and look up at the sky, forget about me. Forget about what I have done to you, forget everything about me and start a new life.

All I want for you is for you to be healthy, safe and the most important is to be happy.

Live the life you want; I won't appear in your life anymore.

If I am able to meet you in heaven, will be so happy but I know I won't be going there. I love you, Jennie. And I will love you until the end of time.

I want you to know that I never faked my love for you, I do love you.

So now this is goodbye. You are free for good.