My Little Dancer

We arrived back at the club. When I walked in Venom saw my arm. "What the hell happened to you?"

"Angel happened to him. He grabbed her arm and she cut him. He is going to need stitches."

"Go see the doctor Spider. Get that arm taken care of."

As he walked away I turned and looked at Venom. "She is going to kill herself soon, Venom."

"How do you know?"

"I saw it in her eyes. She is not needed or wanted anymore. Not know that you and Tara are having a baby. Not after you let him talk to Angel the way he did."

"I would give her a month."

"She won't do that Rock and you know it."

"Oh, yes she will. She is starting to draw blood."

"She is no longer just fighting. She would have stabbed him instead she cut him."

"I sewed up Spider's arm. I have my suspensions. She gave you 1000 stitches son. Do not mess with Angel. She is deadly. You are not the last one whose blood she will spell."

"What are you talking about doctor?"

"She is going to drink, get high, fight, draw more blood, and soon she will take her own life."

"Why would she do that?"

"She is not wanted anymore. Her dad didn't want her before she was born. Psycho threw her away when she was 3 years old. Now her mom and Venom are having a baby."

"You caused her to leave this clubhouse, And her mom and dad did not stand up for her."

"Isn't that enough reason?"

"Angel is not a spoiled brat, Spider. She fought for everything she has. She was finally healing. Until you had to run your mouth."

"She is back to being depressed again. We have all seen it coming we just didn't think it would be this soon. She is tired of not being wanted."

I thought about what the doctor said. I do not want to be the reason she is going to take her own life. I do not want her to kill herself. But everyone tells me she is tired of not being wanted.

I think Venom said she will turn 23 in two days. It will be the first birthday she does not spend with Tara and Venom. And it may be the day she ends it all.

I sure hope not. I won't have her death on my hands. However, my big mouth caused all this. There is something about her that sets me on edge.

I walked out with my arm wrapped from elbow to wrist. I sat down and looked at Venom. "Where is Tara?"

"She is in bed. She won't talk to me. She just lays there with one hand on her belly and cries. She wants Angel to come home. But she knows she won't. At least not alive."

"I don't know how to help her."

"I say we go and get Angel and make her come home."

"Don't be stupid, Spider. You don't know Angel as we do. She will hurt one of us if not a few of the members. It does not matter that she lived in the club off and on since she was five years old."

"She has set her mind to do something. I am sure that she is bidding her time before she commits suicide."

I was watching the fireworks with Dakota when I saw Venom's members starting to sit around us. "There is going to be one hell of a fight, Dakota. When it starts I want you to get into my car." I handed her the car keys.

I reached down and pulled a knife out of each of my boots. "I want you to start it and get ready for me to jump in. Then take off like a bat out of hell to the house."

We stood up and walked over pretending to look at some dresses, shirts, and scarves. "I told you there would be a fight."

"Go now."

I walked toward the car following Dakota then I turned around to look at the members and prospects.

"You all know what I can do and will do. Those prospects do not know me as well. Tell them not to be stupid Preacher."

"Angel, it is true we do know what you can do. We also know when you are in this mood you will not hesitate to cut anyone of us. But, your mother is hurting. She wants you to come him."

"Go to hell, Preacher. Neither mom nor Venom made any attempt to stand up for me. They shove that mother fucking VP of theirs. Too bad I didn't cut his throat."

"Just then a prospect was really stupid. I moved so fast that they didn't see it coming. I cut his shoulder down to his waist."

"Fuck, she is fast another prospect said."

"We told you what she would do. You are one stupid son of a bitch."

"I started walking backward. Preacher the next one that comes at me I will kill. Stay here and take care of your prospect. All of you stay away from me."

"Angel was trained by the best fighters in the world. She can hurt or kill every one of us. Do not move. And take care of that prospect."

I ran to the car and jumped in yelling for Dakota to drive. We made it home without them following us. We didn't see Biker News there filming what happened.

We walked inside and I took alcohol and cleaned the blood from my knives. "Shit Angel, I have never seen anyone move as fast as you did."

I put my blades back into my boots before removing them. I grabbed two beers and handed her one. We walked into the living after I lowered the metal blinds and the doors were closed.

I turned on biker news and sat down. I sat up shocked that my fight had been recorded. "What the hell. Did you see Biker News there?"

"No, I didn't."

The reporter said; "Breaking news. Daughter of Venom attacks members of his clubhouse. What could have caused such anger for Angel to do this?"

"It has been reported that it might have something to do with Venom's new VP. The hate she has for him, the hurt that her mother and Venom did not stand up for her."

"Has, Angel had enough?"

"Has she grown tired of not being wanted? Since her mother and Venom are having a child of their own, have they thrown her out of the clubhouse? Since she is no longer needed?"

"Angel, we all hope that is not the case. You do not deserve that. You are strong. You are a fighter."

"Wait, someone wants to say something."

"Who are you?"

"I am one of Angel's half-brothers."

"Angel doesn't deserve everything that has happened to her. That is true. My two other brothers fear that she has become so depressed she no longer wants to live."

"We fear that she might take her own life and soon. Angel, we love you. We would never throw you away like trash. Come home to us. We will help you."

"I know my sister. What I ask may not be enough. I pray it is."

"Think again brother."

"There is no god so your prayers are worth shit."

"If there was a god, I would not have lived with all this pain."

"I am going to my room. I will see you in the morning, Dakota."

I walked to my bedroom and finished my letters. I then finished my will and plan on taking it to the courthouse to file in the morning when I take Dakota home.

My brother is right. I don't deserve everything that has happened to me. I hope mom and Venom will be happy. It is better I am no longer on this earth.

Friday is my birthday. I will go drink, get high, get into fights and hope I die with a knife or gun in my hands.

As far as I am concerned. I was a mistake. I was never supposed to be born. Yes, mom may love me and my brothers. No one else does. No one else cares if I live or die.

I am not meant to have a husband or child of my own. I will choose to die young. I do not want to die when I am old without no children by my side.

I do not want to die living a lonely life. I have had enough of that. The one thing I can choose is how I die. I will make sure of that.

I finished everything and laid the envelopes and my will on the dresser before turning the lights out and going to bed.

The next morning after eating breakfast I took Dakota home and then drove to the courthouse. I got off my bike and walked into the courthouse. I filed my will and walked out.

I sat on my bike not seeing that fucking VP and some members of Venom's clubhouse. I started the bike and drove away.

We walked to the courthouse and asked one of the member's wives what Angel was doing there. "She filed her will we were told."

We drove to the clubhouse and saw Tara and Venom sitting at the table. "Venom we saw Angel come out of the courthouse."

"What was she doing there?"

"She filed her will."

We saw the change in Tara's face. She is planning to kill herself. She would not have filed a will otherwise."

"Venom you have to stop her?"

"How? She won't let us near her. She cut Spider, and she cut one of the prospects."

"I don't know. I just know we have to stop her."

"Just then Venom's phone rang."

"This fucking better be good. He said."

"She is doing what?"

"Where?"

"Tara, stay here. I have to take the bike and you can't go. Angel is taking risks."

"Follow me he said running out of the club."

"We all followed Venom to a bike jumping."

"Where is she?"

"Devils ramp."

"She can't make that jump. No one has lived."

"Well, she is about to jump it. Best get over there."

We arrive at the roar of a bike and then before we stopped our bikes she was flying threw the air. "Son of a bitch."

We watched as her front tire barely cleared the ramp holding our breaths. About 100 people were watching holding their breaths."

Then her bike was riding down the other side. Everyone was yelling, whistling, and clapping their hands. Angel made the jump.

My heart stopped beating for a few minutes. I thought I was going to bury my daughter. We rode to the ramp where she stopped her bike.

I didn't like to hear what she was telling some other bikers "I wasn't supposed to make that jump."

"But you did. You are a crazy woman. You could have died."

"That was the plan she told them."

"They stared at her. "Looks like you are not going to die, today Woman."

"That's too bad she said."

She started her bike and started to drive away. As she got to us she glared at us. She didn't stop to talk to Venom. She just drove past him turning her head.

"Again it looks like Angel is on Biker News folks. She must really have a death wish. Angel jumped "Devils Ram and lived to tell the tale."

"This was videotaped by a biker watching as she made that dangerous jump. No one else ever made this jump and lived to tell about it."

"Looks like Angel, is living a reckless life she doesn't care if she lives or dies."

At Fire's clubhouse, the members yelled they were going to beat her ass for doing something so stupid.

Fire looked at his mom and saw tears flowing down her face. "Mom, what the hell is she thinking?"

"She wants to die."

"Something must have happened at Venom's clubhouse. She is depressed again. Why would she ride past Venom and his members glaring at him?"

"I don't know but I plan on finding out. Fire told her."

At the Lightenings clubhouse, her brothers looked at Lightening. "She really does want to kill herself doesn't she?"

"Boy's, she has a death wish. After everything that has happened to her, she has had enough. She feels unloved and unwanted. She has a right to her feelings."

"Don't be too hard on your sister. After everyone has started to turn their back on her this time her depression is bad."

"Dad, we are the only ones that stood up for her. Tara and Venom let that fucking VP call her a spoiled brat and said she was not wanted. What do you think she would do?"