My Fiancée Hates Me

Morning came and I found myself in the arms of a beautiful man. Feeling a bit embarrassed, I tried my best to slip out of his arms without waking him. Then, I left a note on his table saying that I enjoyed our time together last night after changing my clothes.

I met with Grace and Charlotte before going into town. There, we would all do our hair, have our makeup professionally done, and be properly fitted into our dresses that were sent in some time earlier.

I wore a slim fitted royal blue dress with some gold bordering embellishments with some short off the shoulder sleeves and ruffles at the bottom. For my hair, I had it tied up in a high side ponytail with a large blue-ribbon tie and small blue rose ornaments. I wore a thin silver necklace with a blue jewel.

I had a long slit in the side of my dress, so I thought I might as well hide a few daggers around my thighs. Under my gloves, I hid a small razor just in case my wrists would be tied. I also had built in daggers into my heels and some needles coated in sleeping potions around my waist.

Garett appeared before me in a white carriage and a long black suit with a blue stand up collar shirt underneath. Over right shoulder was a long blue side cape.

It was only just last night where I got to see his beautiful face up close.

"Shall we get going?" he asked as he held out my hand.

"Yes..."

The beginning of the ride was rather quiet.

"Are you unhappy with anything, Arielle?"

"Huh? Ah, I am sorry...I was just thinking about a few things."

About how to rid that nuisance of the kingdom...

"Is it another man?"

Prince Erik's face popped into my mind for a moment.

I was not even thinking about him before until he said it...

"N-No..."

I am on my way to my first life's husband's birthday party with my current lover and now another man pops into my mind...

Does my faithfulness only reach an ounce of salt?

I should really focus on Kaya Ouchi making a possible comeback at this next party.

"It's a woman," I answered him.

"...I had no idea my lover was into both sexes. This is definitely troubling indeed," he said with a sarcastic tone.

"If you think so, maybe you should hold onto me as tightly as possible," I said in a playful tone.

He suddenly held my hand.

"...If I were to hold on too strongly to you, you would run away from me again," he said with a slightly melancholic expression.

The doors of the carriage were suddenly opened.

A familiar scene of the castle appeared. The Royal Castle was once a place I had frequented the most after marriage with Erik. It was also the deathbed for my most beloved person and myself. I suddenly grew cold feet as I went down the stairs of the carriage and hugged Garett tightly.

"...For one moment...please let me hold onto you for just a moment longer," I said meekly.

"...How could I refuse my lover being selfish for once?" Garett asked as he rubbed my head softly.

There were so many things I was scared of.

What if Kaya Ouchi appears again? What if she is stronger than before? What if I am unable to defeat her this time?

As I walked through the front doors, my worries began increasing.

What if I lose Prince Erik again? What if I lose someone else? What if it is Garett this time?

Garett is not yet set to die...I could have shortened his lifespan by moving things faster.

Why is the future so uncertain? Am I making things worse? What if I end up hurting Charlotte or Grace this time?

I felt sick to my stomach so much that I wanted to puke. I held my hand over my mouth and bent over.

"As I thought, I cannot do this," I said.

Garett walked in front of me and kneeled before me.

"Arielle, if you cannot stand the thought of Prince Erik marrying someone else, you can always go to his side..."

He is misunderstanding things...I want to correct him, but I have yet to completely sort my feelings out yet.

"I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. There are so many mistakes that I can never make up for..." Some of them cost the lives of people very important to me. Even if I am able to avoid a tragic fate, I still do not think I will ever be able to forgive myself. "There are so many times where I think about how wonderful it would be to redo everything... That would also mean that I would abandon all of the sweet memories that happened as well. I am terribly scared of the thing called change. What if things become worse? What if I am no longer who I thought I was? Did I ever really exist? Even you...there is no telling when you will change and leave me! That is the fate of everyone close to me..."

We will all go off to live our separate lives... Charlotte will go far away and get married, Grace will return home and be wedded to someone far as well, Prince Erik will stay in the castle where not many people can reach him, and even Garett's love for me is a question of when before he stops loving me. The only true way of knowing how to tie someone down is through marriage...

"Around us, things are going to change today and maybe tomorrow, but you and I will never change..."

I hugged him tightly.

I will not let fate do as it pleases with any of us...