FULL NOVELXO Chapter 127
Xade’s pov
A boy,” she gasped out, her feverish skin like a dark contrast to the cold of the water. ” a mini you.” She cracked a smile, trying to show me that she was still fighting. I hold her tighter.
“Whichever baby, I will be happy,” I planted a kiss on her forehead, breathing in her scent. Her skin was still feverish, hot to the touch.
I am still stunned by how quickly this had happened, one second she seemed normal, okay even. And now, she was fighting this burning fever that showed me that my essence was having a hard time threading with hers.
Her pain was mine.
As I held her close, feeling the heat of her feverish skin against mine, I felt absolutely helpless and powerless. What good of an alpha can I be if I cannot save my mate from this kind of fate? I cannot help her? Take away the pain she felt in her veins, her bones? What good of an alpha am I?
What good of an alpha am I?
The sight of her so weak tore me to my core.
I want to wear white,” her voice is shaky, but playful, pulling me out of my grim thoughts. “Hmm?” I said on her head, my fingers grazing over her skin.
Her lips part into small smile. “My wedding dress silly,” she lifts her hands to my face, her shaky fingers tracing along my jaw and then pinching my chin.
Even though I am clearly not a virgin anymore,” she snorted, making me chuckle low. I cup her cheek tenderly, staring at her fondly. She really was my life, without her in it, I was nothing. Not a single thing.
And what color will I wear?” I joked lowering my head and brushing my thumb over her red flushed cheeks. I knew they were red because of her fever.
“I presume you will want your man to wear a color you’d like?” I whispered, the tip of my nose tickling against hers teasingly.
Her eyes were teary as she replied. ” As long as I will be able to take it off of you that night, you can wear any color you’d like,” she said playfully, making a bubble of laughter rumble from my chest.
Despite the gravity of our situation, she was trying her best to be hopeful, to show me how strong she really is. My eyes mist and I swallowed hard, the lump in my throat returning as soon as I do.
Hmm, any color huh?” I teased, playfully brushing my nose against hers and causing her to smile wider. I brush a lock of her hair behind her ear, grazing just below, making sure to avoid her mark.
“I’ll make sure to remember that.” I joked, pulling back and winking down at her. She giggle, faint and strained but I made her giggle. It warmed my heart, warmed my soul and being. My wolf wagged its tail, happily barking.
Her fingers that tremble with fatigue lift to brush against my jaw, her turning serious. “I can’t believe I forgot you…how was that even possible?”
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I swallowed the knot in my throat, looking at her deeply. How will I tell her it had been my choice to erase me from her memories because I thought I was protecting and saving her?
V, “I breathed, hesitant to tell her this now given that this information could hurt her when she was already hurting.
Her eyes searched mine and she nod. ” You’ll tell me everything when I am ready?” her voice fragile and low.
I nod, swallowing hard. “I promise I will tell you everything. Every single thing Avery. I won’t leave a thing out,” I vowed, my voice laced with promise and regret for not telling her everything sooner.
She searched my gaze, her eyes so dim, so much dimmer than it always had been staring up at me. I didn’t like that mist of shadows that dimmed her gaze, that mist that revealed the pain she feels right now.
My heart. Oh V, I wish I could take away the pain.
“I trust you,” she murmured. ” Always.”
I choked, tears streaming down my face as I could no longer hold it in. I should be strong for her, a pillar and I cannot in the moment. I touched her feverish face, the heat still the same, even more intense now.
Why are you crying?” She whispered, moaning and shifting slightly in my arms.
Because you’re leaving me Avery,” I cried in pain. ” You’re leaving and you promised me you wouldn’t.”