FULL NOVELXO Chapter 123
Xade’s pov
Avery’s hands rest on my head gently, her fingers threading through the strands to soothe me. ” Xade,” her soft voice breaks through my rushing thoughts. I have never been this terrified in my life.
Hell, I wasn’t terrified of death. But this, the fear of losing her was grand. She was my lifeline. What would be the point in this life if she were not there in it with me? This is why for years I fought off the bond so at least we could be with each other forever.
I screwed up.
It took one night, one night to change the course of our future.
I should have pushed her away that night. Put on the light. Hell, I should have told her I wasn’t Kyan.
But I was selfish. Selfish for wanting her.
Her fingers running through my hair grow a bit rougher, as if she was also lost in her own head. And then her sweet determined voice came through, making my heart clench even more. “I’m not going anywhere.”
I slowly pulled back, my head tilting up and my eyes staring into hers that were staring back at me with so much love. I don’t deserve her love. I don’t deserve her.
She begin to wipe my tears with her fingers and a sob wretch from my chest. I have never been this emotional before, Avery knew she was the only one possible to get me down on my knees. She was my weakness. Always had been.
“Th-e mar-k,” my voice tremble and for that moment I feel like a little boy, lost, frightened and helpless.
Her eyes shift in understanding and they mist, her trembling fingers scanning my jawline. ” Give me a little benefit of the doubt baby, I can do this. I’m not going to lose.”
Her words give me threads of hope that I tried my best to cling to. ” I’m sorry I am a monster. A beast,” my voice breaks. ” An animal. You deserved better, you deserve someone who is human-
Avery cuts me off when her finger press against my lips and her eyes turn into a lethal glare. ” I love you in every way you are. Beast, human, I don’t care,” her eyes soften.
“There’s a reason why we are fated silly,” she breathed, a small smile painting on her lips and hiding that tinge of fear I know she felt. ” Even the Gods knew we were meant to be.”
The warmth her gaze brought me as she stares at me unblinkingly, made me swallow as it seeped into my soul. I kissed her stomach once, then again, then again until she giggled. ” Promise you’ll not leave me and fight this?” I whispered.
Avery had always been my anchor. It’s no surprise her words could manage to break through my haze of fear.
She nods, smiling gently. “I’m sorry Mr. Archer but you are stuck with us,” she joked and I sighed, placing my head back on her stomach and flicking my thumb just under her belly button.
I had to have more faith. I had to. I had to clutch every strand of faith left with both hands.
“I can’t believe you slept inside me the entire night,” she snorted, forgetting that we had bigger fish to fry. But perhaps she was trying to get her mind off things.
“I didn’t sleep,” I admitted, kissing her stomach once more, lingering on where I could now smell my pup growing inside her. My wolf was growing strong……..yet the love of our life is growing weak.
Life isn’t fair to us.
She gasped, her movements in my hair stopping. “Xade! Why didn’t you?”
I pulled my head away to look up at her sadly. “I couldn’t. Not when there was a chance you’d not be breathing when I woke up.”
Her eyes saddened and she cupped my face.” You must be tired. Get off your knees.’
I shook my head. ” No, you’re my Queen, I will stay on my knees until I know you will be okay.”
”
Xade,” she murmurs in a soft shy voice.
“You can’t kneel forever-
You have no idea the lengths I would go to for you Avery,” I whispered, every single word holding truth and promise. She was my lover. My life.
My Luna. My heart. My soul. My Queen. My everything.
I’d burn the world for her and I mean it.