More Than Lust

Grace's pov

I don't know if i should be thankful or upset and angry with my destiny. It's showing me different sides of life which i don't want to see or experience.

People says things happens for a reason, each and every thing takes place because it's either connected to our past or future. Whatever happens, happens for a good.

I doubt I believe in it anymore, there are so many things happening in my life and I don't think they are good for my future.

Why that happened to me? That night is still haunting me. Sometimes I think if it wasn't for chief then what would have happened with me. He came on right time.

I should be grateful to him. Today I am Alive because of him. He didn't stop there, he helped me to stand on my feet again. Last two days he was being too gentle with me. We were actually having normal conversations. And My body is getting addicted to those massage, it feels so good. I saw his different side in these few days including vacation. And surprisingly he didn't touch me sexually. He was taking care of me and it's actually very surprising for me.

The man who didn't even care to reply my greetings is now taking care of me like i am someone special to him.

I sighed and looked at my feet, i was terrified thinking that i lost my legs. We never understand the value of something until we loose it. I kept walking on the footpath.

I have come out to take a walk in the garden which is few minutes away from my house. It's feeling good. I want to walk until i believe that my legs are fine and i am normal now.

Face is also fine now, little scratch on forehead and spot on lips that's it. I healed well.

I thought Chief will scold me for blaming Leena without any proof, but i am sure that she is the one who did this. That man was talking to woman and she is the only one who hates me. Chief didn't say anything, he acted like he didn't hear it.

May be he doesn't care or may be he can't do anything to her because she is his fiance. I am not complaining, he has done enough for me and that's more than enough. I can't expect from him to punish his own fiance. He looked happy when she declared their marriage.

I can't do anything to Leena either, she is powerful, she has connections and I don't have any proof against her.

I was getting comfortable around him. I wasn't scared anymore. Now I can Converse with him without stuttering. He was treating me good. And that was making me uncomfortable. I am not used to his good side.

I have very light heart. I get attached to people very easily and trusting people quickly is my biggest weakness. I can't be mean to people when they are good to me.

Till now he made it easy for me to hate him because of his behavior but he snatched that reason from me.

Before it turns into something which i don't want, I had to run from there. I told him that I want to go home and he didn't stop me. Why would he, he must be busy in his wedding arrangments. Day after tomorrow he is getting married. It's very easy to fall for a man who is incredibly handsome and being gentle and caring.

But i can't forget last four months just because he is being gentle with me for few days.

Should I really blame him for that?

I mean he is right, I myself chose this. It's my father's fault and i can't do anything about it. I did it to save our lives. At that time warming someone's bed seemed easier than dying.

Should I really blame a stranger because he is treating me like a whore which actually I became with my sobar decision. Of course he will treat me like one.

Now a days i am trying to look for a positive side in all this. At least I didn't get beaten by him, i am not ending up in his play room. He actually saved me and at least he is handsome, it's not some aged man with nasty mouth. And I have saved my dignity by not giving up.

It might sound stupid but it's saving my sanity.

And most important there are only two days left. Today and tomorrow. Today is almost over, it's almost evening. Something weird is happening in my stomach and heart.

There is fear, curiosity, excitement and something which I can't point out. I am scared that something is going to happen.

I have decided, i am not going to keep any grudges with anyone. Neither chief nor Leena, i want to live peacefull life and for that I have to leave everything behind. "Hey, Grace"

I turned around when i heard my friend's voice. Ruby, is my college friend, gothic beauty. She is nice girl but she is a rebel, she does dangerous things.

"Hii.. Ruby."

I smiled.

"Oh my god what happened?"

She frowned looking at my face.

"Grace, what is this?"

I nervously touched my face. It's not that bad but bruises are still there.

"Nothing, little accident... It's not that serious"

She gently touched my cheek.

"No darling... It's not accident. It looks like someone has abused you... Are you in abusive relationship? Who is that motherfucker?" She said madly.

"Ruby, it's fine... Actually I got harassed by street goons but It has been taken care of now."

I replied. It's difficult to Change her mind when she has doubt about something.

"I knew it... I hope you are fine. You are already so small, it must be hard."

She hugged me.

"Let's go to the club... You look down, it will lift your mood."

"No, Ruby... Actually it's month end and I don't have money to waste on club... And look at my face, i can't go in public..."

I reasoned. I never felt uncomfortable around her, she is such a joy.

"Fuck it... It's on me, i got a new job today so it's a treat... And when i am with you no motherfucker can stop you."

She grabbed my hand and led me towards her bike.

"Kathy is also joining us. It's been so long since we have had club night."

She made me sit inside her car and started driving.

"Ruby, i am wearing sundress with woolly sweater, you think it's a club outfit"

I looked at her and she rolled her eyes.

"Babe you think too much... Relax and enjoy your life. Leave it on me...."

She grabbed leather jacket from back seat and gave it to me.

"Wear this..."

Okay, not bad. At least I won't be odd man out.

We reached to the club and Kathy had same reaction when she saw me. These girls are so nice to me.

"I am so sorry this happened with you... You are so sweet, how can someone treat you like this."

She almost cried.

I assured her that I am fine. This is why I don't tell them anything, they treat me like a child.

As usual, bouncer stopped me after looking at my face. My baby face always creates problems. I don't have my Id either.

Ruby kissed him and whispered something in his ears and he let us enter, I told you she does dangerous things.

She led us towards the VIP area, oh my god. Isn't it too expensive. I tried to talk with her but she didn't listen. We took our seats and she ordered our drinks.

"It's on me Grace... Don't worry, enjoy your night... I wanna see that big bunny smile."

She cheered me up.

Bunny! That's what he calls me. Why?

I shook my thoughts aside. Focus, Grace! Forget everything and Enjoy your night.

We all drank vodka shots on the same time.

Kathy slammed her glass on the table.

"Okay, now i want to hear spicy things... Come on tell me."

She is gossip queen.

"Grace, are you still virgin?"

She asked me and I almost choked on my drink.

I looked up and my eyes met those mesmerizing blue eyes.

Chief! What is he doing here?☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐