Mates Conquer Everything, Right?

‘Where should I start?’ she ask me and I raise my shoulders.

‘Do you have special powers?’ I ask her and she stands up and walks up and down her room.

‘Yes, but I haven’t decided yet.’

‘Decided?’ After working out all morning and having a big breakfast, I didn’t think I was going to use my brain. But look like I need to concentrate.

‘Yes, do you know about the gifted werewolves?’ I shake my head. I read something about it, but it was too difficult to translate.

‘Well, let me tell you a little story about it.’ She smiles and walks over to her dresser and gives me a book.

I open it and it is just like the other books, difficult to read. ‘Just look at the pictures.’ She winks again.

‘First of all it runs in the family. My great-aunt is also gifted. One of the reasons she is an elder. I don’t think I have another family member whom also is gifted, but that can always change.’

I look at the book and the picture of a Pack of wolves with a wolf in the middle with sparkles. ‘So this is you?’ I point and she nods.

‘Yes, it is very exaggerated. I am not going to shine light, but I give power to the Pack.’

I am frowning. ‘How?’

‘Well, you probably know by now that a Pack is as strong as his leader, Alpha. If something happen to him, the Pack gets weak.’

I nod, I know this. This is the reason Igétas and I need to be careful of the Alpha.

‘I am also a factor in strengthening the Pack. Because of my gifts.’

‘So you are like a secret weapon?’

She laughs. ‘Not a secret, a weapon…’ She thinks for a moment. ‘I think I can be. Depends on the situation.’

‘But what can you do? ’ I ask a little bit impatient. ‘I mean, I see your eyes lit up now and then. You know things, you can analyze things so easily.’

‘Go to the next page of the book.’ I turn the page and see pictures of multiple wolfs with different symbols behind them.

‘There are more than one gift you are born with. You see many different symbols of gifts. From mindreading to clairvoyantly, but also fighting strength or even real power.’

One symbol in the book catch my eye, a flame. ‘You mean you can create fire?’ my eyes are big and she laughs.

‘I like the shock on your face. You are always open and accepting and fierce. And know I never had the gift of setting things on fire. Thank the Goddess, Angeline has and she set the barn on fire when she was a younger wolf. It is hard to control when you are young. Like me, I should be able to control my powers better if I am a little older. At this moment I have three gifts. If I decided what is het best for me, I can focus all my energy on one gift and get better.’

‘When are you going to make the decision?’

She gives me a shoulder shrug and continuous.

‘I am not the one who decides on it. The power choses you to.’

‘So, what are the option?’

‘I can’t say it to you. I want to but….’ She looks in pain and I know why.

‘… I am not a Pack member.’ I finish and she nods. Why is everything so difficult?

She is sitting beside me and rubbing my shoulders. ‘Not all the Pack members know my abilities. It is not a secret, like I said before. But I can be a target by an attack or a male can fake being my mate so he gets power for the Pack.’

I return the favor and rubbing her arms now. ‘Must be difficult to have your shield up most of the time.’

She sighs: ‘Can be, but we don’t get a lot of visitors so I am good.’

We hug each other and sit for a moment.

‘Okay, enough about me. How is it with your search?’

It’s my turn to sigh now. ‘It is so difficult to find something. If I am going to find something, it is going to stand in an older book. But the old English is too hard to read.’ I let myself fall down on the bed and put my hand on my face.

‘It is so frustrated, Igétas wants to help but Tharros keeps him busy. When we finally have time to spend with each other, we don’t want to be looking at some dusty books!’ I raise my voice in the end and after days of sucking it all up, I let go.

Tears fall from my eyes and I sob on Amanda’s bed. ‘I am sorry.’

‘Don’t be, it was time for you to snap. You are so strong and brave, but you can’t do it all by yourself.’

I just lay there, on her bed feeling totally overwhelmed.

‘It is okay to feel things. Stop measuring yourself with werewolves. We are born in to this madness.’ She giggles and lies on top of me.

‘Do you hear me, Violet?’ I let my hands fall and look in her eyes. They light up in a flash. I roll my eyes.

‘Yes, I hear you.’

We lay on bed for an hour and talk. About everything the changes for me. What is frustrating me and about my nightmares which are showing up more regular.

‘You should talk to doctor Brown.’ Amanda says and she is not the only one. Maya is suggesting the same. She told me multiple times it will be good for me. A professional psychiatric doctor who also wants to see me. I didn’t want to go. I wanted to be strong, handle it myself. But I can’t, it is too much.

‘I think your right. I think I should see if he has time for me.’ I sit up straight and dry my tears with a tissue Amanda provided for me.

‘Of course he has time for you.'

Her eyes become milky and than she looks at me. '

Let’s go to him right now.’