Married at 19

I was heading to a table with Sasha and Cecilia beside me when my tray suddenly slipped down from my hand. Everyone in the cafeteria quickly moved their attention to us as heard the loud bang from

the tray with the foods all scattered all over the floor.

"Hey Bella, are you okay?" Sasha asked me while putting her hand around my shoulder as she noticed me about to fall.

What is this weird feeling that I feel right now?

'Bella...' I heard Nathan's voice calling for me as his face suddenly flashed in my mind.

Is he alright?

I really don't know how to describe it, but it was the same thing that I felt before he left me.

A bad feeling, to be more exact.

"Bella, talk to us." It is now Cecilia's turn to ask me. "Is everything alright?"

The scared feeling keeps surrounding me now, and I'm so worried that something bad might happen to my husband.

"Bella?" Both of them called my name.

I shook my head for once. "Y-yes..." I stuttered a bit as I replied her.

"Are you alright? Do you want to take a rest for awhile?" Sasha asked me, her face was full of worries.

I faked a smile to her. "I...I-I'm fine." I tried not to show my trembling hands to them. "I'm sorry for being so careless."

"It's okay, Bella," Sasha replied. "Come let me help you buy you another tray of food,"

"Are you sure you are alright?" Cecilia asked me while Sasha went to buy me some other food. "You surely look pale enough," "I'm fine, Cecilia," I replied. "Don't worry about me."

*****

It has been a week now and I don't receive any calls from him. I tried to call his phone several times, but there are no services.

"Max, come here..." I called Nathan's dog who seems no active this past week. He only sits there on his pillow and only eat a few of his food, and he is rarely played with his toys. I wonder why he was acting like that?

It's weird though.

Maybe he misses Nathan so much, so he is behaving like this.

And of course I miss my husband too. But, I'm also mad at him, because he broke his promised now since he didn't pick up my calls for once or even text me.

Did he really thinks that he will bother me because he knew that I have exam this week?

Arghh....I hate when he does that.

Too much concerned about me.

And silly too.

I remember when we had our final exam last year for a week. He is so silly that time, by avoiding me so I could study more. He just stays in his room, studying a little bit, but mostly he only plays with his video games.

Every night, he will wait for me to sleep first, then he will sneak into our bedroom room without making any sounds. And he really thought that his mission was accomplished. Well of course not, but it was so hilarious when he acts so childish like that and sweet too.

But not for long.....he then finally came to me two days before the exam to ask me for my help about his almost fail subjects. He begged me so much that time and even promised to do the chores for a week.

And of course he did the chores as he promised after the exam ended in a week. That was some of the things that I love about him, always never break his promises.

I took a deep breath.

Oh god.... seriously, I miss him so much.

I was looking our pictures together while smiling through my phone. But my finger stopped from sliding the screen as it shows Nathan's solo picture, grinning widely while scratching the back of his hair.

His cutest moves that I love so much.

I touch his cheek on the picture from my screen.

You're all fine there, right Nathan?

According to what he said to me before he left, he supposed, to return here by tomorrow.

Um....I think I should prepare something special for him. Like a candle light dinner, maybe. Then we will go for a date as he promised after that.

"I can't wait to see him!!!" I then rolling happily on my bed after saying that out loud

The day which I waited so much finally arrived and I eagerly want to meet him so I prepare myself since this morning. I know it was a bit overboard since his flight supposed to be land at 3.30 pm, but hey, miss him so much, okay.

Sasha picked me up at 2 pm at my house with her car and drove us to the LAX. Both of us were waiting for Nathan and Seth at the arrival section. I really don't know why, but my heart keeps beating so fast maybe too nervous to meet the man I love. Plus, the scare feeling kept surrounding me too, and it was so weird though.

But getting worse, as we saw a rescue team came out from the arrival station, which was just in front of us. The team was escorting a guy with black spiky hair who looked so badly injured and he was walking with a support from the forearm crutches because his right leg seemed to be broken.

Meanwhile, there were a bandage too, at his right shoulder and also around his head.

"Seth!!!" Sasha, who was in shocked quickly approached the badly injured guy.

I followed her from behind with my legs felt much heavier and I felt so uneasy because I haven't seen any sign of Nathan yet. I looked around for Nathan's figure but he wasn't here. My body was currently trembling as I started to think nonsenses.

The sad expression clearly shown on Seth's face as I looked at him. To be honest, I-I...I never saw him like this. What happened to him anyway?

Where is Nathan, why I haven't seen him yet?

Seriously, I only can describe for now that I'm so scared..... scared of something bad might actually come out from Seth's mouth.

I really hope that Nathan was joking around with us and Seth was his accomplice. I know my husband too well who was full of mischiefs and he must be forced Seth to join him to fool us around. "Is he trying to prank me, Seth?" I asked Seth who was remained silent.

Sasha, who was supporting him from his left side looked at him too, waiting for his answer, but still he remained silent.

He only looked down to the floor and didn't dare to look at me or Sasha, not even once.

"Seth?" Sasha tried to get his attention so he could tell us the truth.

Unfortunately, the tears started to pour on his cheeks, and he tried to speak out but he was stuttering so bad. "I....I...I."

I don't know why, but I cried too when saw him like that.

Please.....don't say those words. I-I....I'm really not sure that I can handle it.

"I.....I'm s-so sorry, Bella." He continued while he was crying.

"No..... no.... why are you apologizing to me? I....I don't want to hear that. I just want to...*cries* know where he is."

"I-I'm sorry, I failed to save him, Bella," he finally said it. "It was all my faults. H-he just slipped away from my hand....*cries* I'm sorry...I was so weak..."

"Stop it!!!" I shouted while covering my ears. "I don't want to hear it anymore!!" Then burst out of crying until I fell down on my knees. I don't want to believe what he just said...he was wrong. I know he's still alive.

Seth and Nathan must be pranking me, right?

"Bella...." Sasha came closer me and gave me a hug to comfort me.

"He's here, right Sasha? He's just joking around with me, right?" She patted my back to calm me down. "He's just not come out yet, right?

"I'm truly sorry, Bella... *cries*..... Nathan died because of me..... because I'm too weak, to save him," Seth continued to apologize and he even stated that my Nathan is dead.

How could he!

"No.....nooo.....he isn't dead!!!" I protested. "He promised me that he will come home to me!!!" I hit him hard on the chest as I stood back on my feet. I didn't care if he's hurt or not, I just want to know the truth. "He promised me.......Nathan promised that he will return home....He promised!!!" My heart shattered in million of pieces and once again I fell on my knees, crying so hard.

Na-Nathan, how could you leave me like this....you promised me that you will return to me a-a...and you promised me too to take me for a date....but why.....why did you leave me? Why did you break your promises now, why???

Sasha hugged me so she could comfort me after heard the shocking news from Seth. The reporters tried to interview me about what happened even to Seth too, but the rescue team blocked them since it wasn't the good time to get such information from us all.

And they were right, I was so sad to handle this kind of situation. Sasha then brought me to my apartment where my family already waited for me. Maybe they already heard the news about...I just can't believe it. It was too hard for me to accept it.

How am I supposed to live without him? How?

"I'm so sorry, Bella," my little sister quickly gave me a hug as soon as I got out from Sasha's car. "I heard the news..."

"No, he wasn't, don't trust it...," I protested while released the hug from my sister.

"Bella," my father approached me. "Come, let's go home to our house,"

I shook my head, "No, I don't want to." I declined. "What if Nathan came home and I wasn't here to greet him. He might be upset of me..."

"Oh Bella..." my father quickly hugged me. "I know it's hard for you to accept it, but Nathan is no longer with us."

I shed the tears again, in my daddy's arms, "He's still alive, daddy, Nathan...is still alive,"

"No, he wasn't, please accept this, my dear daughter," he rubbed my back to comfort me. "Come, let's go home with Ivy and Nick..."

"But Nathan," I protested again, likewise being a stubborn girl.

"Could you please accept it already, Bella," my father raised his voice. "Please accept his death so he could rest in peace. Don't you want that for him? Don't you want him to be sad too if he see you like this? Believe in me, you will get better soon....because I knew it. I used to lost someone that I loved too before. So I want you to be strong, alright?"

The tears poured down more on my cheeks as heard his words, "But I'm not strong, daddy."

He then wiped my tears with his thumbs, "Don't worry, Ivy is here and Nick too. We will always be here with you... I promised that."

I nodded.

"Alright, let's go home now," he said then asked Nick to start the car and Ivy to help me to get on the car. "Anyway thanks, Sasha for taking my daughter here."

"You're welcome, Mr Dawson," Sasha replied.0000