Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2

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Episode-352**

Angela's POV:

Aaron didn't return to the room, it's

midnight.... Queen left along ago, I couldn't stand there so I decided to hide.

But as he is not here anymore, a fear is rising... like he will

feel disgusted in me because I killed my mother, His mother hates me for

everything... I can't complain...

But why she didn't try to understand what went through my

heart?..

what if Aaron listens

to his mother?

Will he leave me?....

he will abandon me like everyone else did?

I heard a voice

inside me, 'You don't deserve anyone... you killed your mother and many...' stop this...

'You are never going to be happy... he will leave you'

no... he can't.... I can't

lose the only person I love...

'You are no longer

the Angela he loved.... you are worthless'

my eyes flooded with

tears....

'You are disgusting'

No... No... please...

please stop

'You are disgusting

and worthless... what kind of person you are?'

Please...stop!...

I covered my ears

with my hand, my hands are shaking, but the voice never stopped.

I shut my eyes close,

I want to cry harder.

I felt hand on my

face, it lifted me to face him. I heard Aaron's voice, "Angela... look at me...'

I couldn't look at

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him, fearing this is imagination. I heard him, "Look at me Angela... please... I am

here..."

I opened my eyes with

lot of fear, Aaron was sitting in front on his knees holding my face. I cried out, "I... am sorry... I

didn't meant to kill her.... it.. happened..."

I fell into his arms,

trying to get close to him. He can't leave me, I will be alone and lonely

again.... it's really dark in there... please.

Aaron embraced me, he

caressed my head saying, "I... know.. I know Angela... you didn't meant it... I don't

blame you..."

I hugged him tighter,

I said, "Don't hate me again... please..."

he said, "I never

hated you... please stop crying..."

I whispered, "I love

you a lot... Please... don't leave me... don't leave me..."

I grabbed his face

looking at him, I begged, "Please Aaron believe... me.. I didn't wanted to kill

her... I regret it... she said.. she said... I was burden, useless... she didn't regretted leaving me... I lost it..... I didn't mean to"

I saw his tears, he

grabbed my hand said, "I don't blame you... I know before mom... I knew what you

went through... please.... Stop crying.... I will not leave you, I love you more than

myself...."

he knows, but he

understood my side of the story...

then why the Queen

didn't?

She.... She just asked

to leave Aaron.... How will I do that?....she Ordered me...

I don't want to leave

him.... I can't leave him.

30 minutes later,

I was cuddling into

him in bed, This time it is need to feel him close.... it's hard... really hard....

I feel like he is dream that will be withdrawn from me.....

I heard Aaron,

"Angela... please sleep... don't worry..."

I couldn't help but worry....

I asked, "What if

Queen... takes you away?"

I added, "she hates

me...."

Aaron stayed silent,

this increased my fear. But he said, "My mom... she is nicest lady I have ever seen....

She is kindest among us all.... I don't know what to do... I couldn't define the

way she behaved, she never said something as this to both sister-in-laws... but I know I will not leave you."

he will not leave me...

this gave me strength...

He added, "But why mom is doing this?"