Love in Prime Years

She thought that the box would be filled with Leigh's toys or something, but to her surprise, there was a delicate notebook in it.

What Leigh wrote on that notebook was his last words.

"Mommy, I know that I'm really sick and will die one day, but I have so much that I want to say to you, so I'll just write it all down on this notebook."

"Mom, the happiest thing in my life is that I got to be your son. You're the best mommy in this world."

"Mommy, I'm sorry that I often got sick and I know that you've suffered a lot because of me. I'm so sorry."

"Mommy, I know that I'm a burden to you, but I still want to be your baby if there is a next life."

"I'll be a healthy kid in another lifetime and be a little man. I will get super strong and protect you."

Actually, a normal three-year-old seldom can learn to write and read.

But Leigh was born smart and had a great teacher, Rufus. He can already read some simple characters when he was little and self-learned more after they left the dungeon.

If there was character that he can't write, he will just replace it with phonetic transcription.

Leigh wrote a lot on this notebook. He told Amelia that she should eat well and take care of herself. He sounded like a little man.

But what Leigh repeated the most was that Amelia should stop loving that bad man.

Amelia knew that Leigh was referring to Lawrence.

"Mommy, that bad man doesn't deserve your love and your tears. He's not worth it."

"Mommy, just forget that bad man. My mom is the greatest woman on earth and can definitely find the best man."

"Mommy, when you find your true happiness, remember to bring my new daddy to see me. I have to make sure that he is the right guy for you."

"Mommy, I can only be rest assured when you forget that bad man and become happy."

"Mommy, you must be happy!"

Holding Leigh's notebook in her hand, Amelia's eyes started welling up. Her Leigh really wanted her to be happy!

She probably didn't have much time left, but she would definitely not let Leigh down as long as she was alive. She got to be happy!

Then when she met Leigh one day, she can proudly tell him that mommy had delivered her promise.

As for her love for Lawrence...

Well, she seemed to have already stopped loving him that much.

Once upon a time, she foolishly thought that Lawrence was her true and only love, but she had learned that there was no such thing as only love in this world after being hurt and doubted again and again. Lawrence, I didn't love you anymore. I won't love you and think about you anymore even I only got one day to live.

Just when Amelia was about to close Leigh's notebook, she suddenly noticed that there were several lines of words on the back of the notebook.

"Uncle Rufus, I really miss you. Where did you go? Why don't you come and visit me and mommy?"

"Uncle Rufus, I really want you to sing Little Star for me again."

"Can you sing Little Star for me in front of my tomb after I die?"

Amelia hurriedly put Leigh's notebook back into that box and started sobbing uncontrollably.

She had found Rufus, but he was no longer the "Uncle Rufus" who would hold Leigh in his arms gently and sing Little Star over and over again to tuck him in.

Rufus before was really super sweet to Leigh and was even more patient than she was.

Leigh used to love this song, but she thought it was too naïve and didn't want to sing it for him. It was Rufus who would be extremely patient and sing for Leigh.

Rufus had a beautiful voice and was even more pleasant to hear than the most graceful cello song in the world. His voice didn't change much, but now he would only utter the cruelest words in the world.

Amelia knew that she would just be asking for insults if she went to Rufus again, but she still wanted to try and meet Leigh's final wish. She really wanted him to sing for Leigh even if it would cost her another finger. After making up her mind, Amelia dressed up and went to the Moss Building to find Rufus.

She saw Lawrence who was standing outside as soon as she opened the door.

There was stumbles on his chin and dark eye circles under his eyes. It seemed like that he hadn't slept for days.

But he still looked as mesmerizing and aloof as ever.

"Lawrence, what are you doing here?"

Lawrence stepped forward and clutched at Amelia's hand, "Amelia, I'm so sorry, I..."

Amelia let out an indifferent smile. Lawrence was still continuing, "Amelia, I can't just leave Lillian to die there, so I can only choose her under that situation."

Amelia looked up slowly. The cut on her forehead had already formed a scab which wasn't clear to see under her bang. But she looked haggard and ghastly pale. "You can't leave Lillian to die there, so my Leigh should be the one who die, right?"

Lawrence stepped back and said, "Amelia, I'm so sorry..."

Sorry again...

Amelia found Lawrence pretty ridiculous.

Her dear Leigh had suffered so much. His saying sorry cannot make up anything at all.

Who cares?

"Get out!" Amelia's eyes were all red and just pushed Lawrence away frantically, "Lawrence, get the fuck out! I don't want to see you anymore!"

Amelia had a lot to question him before like why would you kill our Leigh or wasn't your blood and flesh more important than Lillian...

But now everything seemed ridiculous.

She and Leigh combined was probably not even as important as Lillian's a strand of hair!

Lawrence knew that he was the one who did something wrong, so he didn't really stop Amelia and just stared at her blankly.

Without Lawrence's pestering, Amelia got to the Moss Building's underground parking quickly.

It just so happened that she saw Rufus on his car when she just entered the garage.00000