In My Mind In His World

Chapter 0175

It wasn’t just a kiss. It felt much more like a punishment that made me feel suffocated.

The scent of blood lingered in the air around us, however, I wasn’t sure if the scent was coming from the blood on Nicholas‘ waist or the blood coming from our mouths.

No matter what, the kiss was the worst experience I ever had. It was so bad that an absurd thought came to me. Nicholas would rather use the last of his strength to ensure he died before me.

I seemed to have gotten used to him staring at me, to him pulling me over and kissing me randomly, to his gentle smile, and to the fact that he had treated me as his wife.

Suddenly, I came to realize that Nicholas had tamed me. He had used countless “first times” in our relationship to give me a new outlook on our relationship.

He had also shown me how meaningless a one–sided relationship could be and that a relationship would only be meaningful when such love was reciprocated. Hence, I didn’t know how to reject him

anymore.

Suddenly, I gave up resisting and allowed him to kiss me as he wished, letting him clumsily clash his teeth against mine. Then, a thought began circulating within my mind.

Did he know that I had found out about Jasmine? Otherwise, how could he be so shameless as to refuse to divorce me?

I wanted to have a proper and honest conversation about our relationship, but I couldn’t utter a single word as I looked at him. No

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matter how I tried to phrase it, each word and sentence was filled with cruelty.

Back then, I didn’t realize that silence would be the biggest form of expression for my anger.

apply

I pushed Nicholas away and impassively continued pressure on his wounds. “You should save your strength. You’ll only be able to continue with your act if you stay alive.”

My conclusion regarding the entire matter was that he was still lying.

to me.

I wasn’t a good actress. Whenever I was on set, I would easily get caught up in my own emotions and would often use those emotions to continue my act.

He hummed in pain while I shrugged and said, “I’m sorry. Did I hurt you? I didn’t do it on purpose.”

Nicholas laughed in frustration, but he was still a cunning fox. He took control of my hand which was putting pressure on his wounds. before leaning against me.

With a deep voice, he said, “Well, I did it on purpose!”

Nicholas‘ body was burning hot. His body felt abnormally hot, warming up the cold walls around my heart.

He kissed my forehead and the corner of my eyes before prying my lips open with his tongue, teasing every sensitive nerve in my body.

I knew the taste of his lips and the scent on his body, but how was I supposed to describe how I was feeling at that moment? It was more or less the feeling of being pleasured by a stranger, and it felt morally wrong.

suldn’t forget the words Pete had said to me. He was about to

have a child with another woman

My heart was filled with helplessness as i couldn’t push him away, mar could i reject him. Was the one who fell first al is destined to be on the losing end?

I couldn’t help myself as tears began streaming down my face. I had never seen a volcano, but my tears felt hotter than lava at that

moment

toned many times in my life, when was happy and when I was sad, but I had never cried due to the feeling that I was losing myself. I murmured, “I really do hate you”

I had lost completely. Perhaps it was due to my tears being too sally, but Nicholas finally came to a stop. He coughed lightly and was about to speak when his phone rang.

Claudia’s anxious voice sounded out through the phone after he answered her call ‘Nick, where are you?”

Nicholas glanced at me before making his voice sound calm and relaxed to not worry Claudia. “What’s wrong?”

“Dad saw the messages in the group, and he just fainted!”

Nicholas‘ grip around my waist tightened as his voice turned sharp. What messages? What group is that?”