In My Desperate Time

When Jane wakes up, she has already been detained in the police station.
But I know she didn't mean to shoot me. Although there is no evidence, I believe her.
Jane will never do that.
She must have her difficulties.
I even know that this must have something to do with Hilda.
Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do to help her. Instead, I can only push her into the abyss of suffering.
Since old Mr. Louis reminds me, I start investigating Hilda.
After some investigation, I finally understand why old Mr. Louis has changed his attitude towards Jane.
It turns out that Hilda is much more ruthless than I imagine.
She has close ties with the gangs in the Golden Triangle, Middle East and Europe. Her business includes not only arms, drugs,
black money, but also all kinds of materials for terrorist activities. In fact, there is no business that she's never involved in.
Hilda's hands are stained with the blood of countless people. She is even the culprit for Terence's death. At first, I thought that
she needed my help and pretended to marry her, but I didn't expect that she is such a person.
I will definitely protect Jane well, but I'm afraid that I will make some slips.
As for Jane, she absolutely can't take any risks.
I have no choice. This is an excellent opportunity to earn Hilda's trust. I can't just lose it.
Therefore, I can only pretend to be ruthless and let Jane stay in the safest place.
I hear that she has a very bad time in prison.
I hear she wants to see me.
I also hear that Hilda goes to see her and says a lot of cruel words in my name.
Forget it.

As long as she's safe, I am satisfied.
After Jane goes to prison, Hilda shows her love for me without restraint.
I finally know why she is so ruthless against Terence.
A woman can be more ruthless than anything else.
I never go to visit Jane in prison. However, I never stop thinking about her.
While Jane is in prison, Hilda tells me that she wants to marry me.
But I don't want to marry her, nor do I want to look at her.
Her face makes me sick.
However, in order to gain Hilda's trust and destroy her in one fell swoop, I have no other choice.
Soon, the court passes sentence. That day in court, I finally know that Jane fired at me because Hilda had planted a miniature
bomb in Earl's brain.
Or rather, Hilda lied to her. Actually, there wasn't any bomb in Earl's head. But Jane was too worried to keep herself calm and
rational. It was not easy for Jane to recognize Earl. She loves this child so much, so how can she see him suffer a little?
The court then sentences her to five years in prison. Five years is enough for me to deal with Hilda.
Hilda is a very proud person. She wants to tell everyone about her marriage.
The wedding billboards are everywhere. But I never expect Jane will come out of jail soon.
Not surprisingly, she knows about my marriage to Hilda.
One day, when I am writing an invitation in my office, I suddenly hear a familiar voice from outside.
"Let go of me! I want to see Frances! Let me see him!"
Jane.
It's her.

My heart, because of her voice, fiercely palpitates.
I miss her.
I miss her all the time. This kind of longing is driving me crazy.
But, isn't she in jail?
Why is she out?
Doesn't she know how dangerous it is outside?
I can't see her. No matter what, I can't see her.
I'm afraid that once I see her, all my emotions will no longer be concealed.
"Not everyone is qualified to see Mr. Frances. We will call the police." The voice of the security guard also comes in.
Jane's excited voice follows.
"Frances! Come out. I have something to say to you!"
"Frances, open the door!"
"Frances, you coward, don't you even dare to see me? Are you afraid that I'll shoot you again?"
I'm not scared.
I'm just afraid that Hilda will hurt her.
But I really can't hold back my longing for her.
Forget it, I'll just see her this time.
Just this one time.
I open the door and whisper,
"Let her in."

Then, I return to my seat and continue to write the invitation.
It is as if this is the only way to calm my heart.
"Don't beat around the bush. I'm very busy and don't have that much time." I say coldly. But the pain in my heart is so great that I
can barely breathe.
She walks over, smiles at me and says, "Are you ... going to marry her?"
I nod and reply indifferently, "Yes."
Actually, I don't want to marry Hilda. The one I wish to spend my life with is her.
I've never expected that I will be so helpless. I'm actually afraid that I won't be able to protect her well.
"Why? Didn't you say that I will be the only one you love in your life? Why are you marrying another woman now? Frances, didn't
you say you love me? Then why would you rather believe in Hilda than in me? Is this the way you love me? You lied to me! You
lied that you would love me forever! Frances, you liar! Liar!" She says hysterically.
I look up at her. She is still wearing a prison uniform, and her thin, pale face is full of tears.
Why does she lose so much weight during this time in prison?
My heart hurts.
However, I can only use harsh words to break her heart even more.
"Well." I snort coldly and grab her hand, placing it on my chest.
"Why would the woman I love shoot me so accurately in my heart?"
At this moment, I feel extremely uncomfortable as if my heart has been pierced through by ten thousand arrows.
I clearly know that she has no choice but to do this, but I must act ruthlessly and hurt her.
She hurts, and my heart hurts even more.
"I'm sorry." She whispers, her eyes filled with guilt and pain.

At this moment, I really want to hug her tightly into my arms and tell her that I believe in her and I love her, but, unfortunately, I
can't.
"Don't cry crocodile tears. Go back to prison or I'll call the police."
"Do you really hate me this much?" She asks, her voice trembling with fear.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you!
However, there are some things that I can't speak out.
"I told you, I wish you would stay in prison forever."
She looks at the invitation sadly and asks me, "Why is there no one in the Louis' now? Where is Earl?"
"Earl is my son. You don't need to worry about him."
I will take good care of Earl and definitely won't let Hilda hurt him in the slightest.
All she needs to do is protect herself.
"Please, let me see Earl!"
She pleads to me.
I bite my lips and lower my head to continue writing the invitation.
Suddenly, Jane kneels in front of me.
Her helpless and desperate appearance makes my heart ache even more.
"Frances, please let me see Earl. I won't bother him for long. I really miss him and want to hug him. Without him, I really don't
know if I can...."
No.

One more second and I won't hide my emotions.
Jane, don't let all my efforts fail.
Wait for me, wait for me.
I frown and shout, "Security!"
Very quickly, the security guard comes in and takes her out of the office.
The moment the door closes, I stare at the place where she has just stood, at the tears on the ground that haven't dried up yet,
and I am torn with grief.
Afterwards, I send people to investigate Jane's whereabouts after she gets out of prison. I want to know why she gets out of
prison.
Then I learn that she has only gone to David's house.
However, David calls a private doctor to his house. I guess she should be sick.
I have long heard that she suffers a lot of inhuman torture in prison. Although my heart aches, I can only endure it.
I am tormented over and over again.
I only hope that she is not seriously ill.
I've thought she gets out of jail because of some illness.
It is not until I hear that she is bleeding that I find out that she is pregnant with our child.
It is undoubtedly dangerous for her to give birth to another child after just a year of caesarean section.
I don't think I deserve to love her.
I don't know when she was pregnant with Earl. And I don’t know when she is pregnant with this child. Moreover, I let her suffer so
much.
How has she endured these past few days in prison?

Hearing that her life is in danger, I can no longer control myself and secretly go to the hospital behind Hilda's back.
Fortunately, she manages to escape death.
However, her face is even thinner and paler than the last time I saw her.
I look at her, who is still frowning in her sleep, and my heart aches.
I only stay in the ward for five minutes before I leave, and I don't even have time to see the premature baby.
I can't stay long. There’s been no progress in my investigation on Hilda.
If she knew that I have come to the hospital, all my efforts would be in vain.
Because of the baby, Jane is released from prison early.
Afterwards, she comes to see me twice and is ruthlessly turned away by me.
I even slap her.
This slap on her body makes my heart ache so much that I can't breathe.
However, I have no choice. Hilda is very cautious and has always sent people to follow me.
My indifference to Jane, on the contrary, is beneficial to earn Hilda's trust.
Sure enough, Hilda is very satisfied with my actions and trusts me more and more.
Jane works in a restaurant near my house. I've seen her several times.
I know she wants to see Earl, but I can only refuse her time and time again.
After that, she is depressed for a while and change jobs. I hear that she is going to work as a designer that she likes.
I'm happy for her after knowing that she's back in her profession.
At the very least, her life will be meaningful because of the job.

Afterwards, Hilda takes me to the United States more and more often, and I know that the opportunity is getting closer and
closer.
But I don't expect to meet Jane again in the United States.
She comes here to participate in a competition.
She likes design, so it's not surprising for me to see her here.
But I am surprised to receive an invitation from her. She wants to meet me at a seaside resort.
I reject her without thinking.
The United States is Hilda's territory, and every move of us will attract Hilda's attention. Regardless of the reason behind her
invitation, she absolutely can't do such a dangerous thing.
However, she repeatedly stresses that she wants to see me because of something important. I have no choice but to see her.
However, the result is far beyond my expectations.
I don't expect that Terence is still alive, nor do I expect that they will plot to kill Hilda by explosion.
What surprises me the most is that Terence gives up in the end.
I've always known that Terence likes Hilda. However, he has already been hurt by Hilda once.
Now, he is destroyed by Hilda again.
This woman is much more horrible than I think.
I'm really scared that she'll deal with Jane, and Jane's family.
However, Hilda has not made a move yet. I am even more suspicious that she is plotting something big.
The first thing I think of is protecting Penelope.
This also allows me to discover that Penelope has thalassemia.

I finally understand why Jane works so hard. Last time in the United States, she lost the chance to get first place because of
Hilda's interference. She must be very desperate.
It requires a lot of money to cure thalassemia.
Jane doesn't have any money, nor does she have enough ability to protect Penelope. I can only send someone to secretly hide
Penelope and treat her.
But Jane does not know that. Every day, she acts like a walking corpse, living without life.
It breaks my heart after knowing that.
That day, she can't bear any more and comes to see me.
She sees the photos I has been hiding and questions me about Penelope.
However, I can't tell her the truth.
I have neglected that Jane is such a stubborn woman. Many times, she would rather die with dignity.
Of course, when she puts the knife towards her heart, I can only compromise.
I tell her the reason why I must be heartless to her, and our misunderstanding is cleared up.
But I also know that this is not a good thing.
Jane is really not someone who can hide anything.
When I finally have a good chance to knock Hilda down in one fell swoop, she also follows me.
She falls into Hilda's trap and is accused of murder. Although she is safe and sound in the end, this is not her place to stay for
long.
I advise her to go back, but she doesn't listen at all and insist on staying.
In the end, I wait until that day when the chance to destroy Hilda comes.
Hilda wants to meet Mike, the drug trafficker of Thailand. Because of Mike's request, she has to bring me with her.

I am ready to follow Hilda on the cruise ship.
However, when I see the person who comes with Linda, I fall prey to panic.
Wearing makeup, the person looks and behaves like a man.
But I recognize her at a single glance. She is Jane.
So when Mike asks that one of us has to eat the drugs, I take a step ahead of her and throw myself into an abyss of catastrophe.
When Interpol arrives, I know it is over.
I finally fulfill my promise to her.
Jane, I've protected you.
Finally, I smile and close my eyes.
Next, there is a long slumber.
In my sleep, I feel as if I had returned to the school playground that year. A cute girl walks in front of me and hands me a bottle of
Viagra.
If I could go back in time, I would stop her from running and hug her tight, saying affectionately, "Idiot, don't run away. Even in ten
years, you will still fall in love me. Let's start at this moment and be together for the rest of our life."
The end.