In My Desperate Time

It is on the same day that I hear the two pieces of devastating news.
Dad and Mom get divorced. Dad is depressed and dies in a car accident.
That year, I am eighteen.
Grandpa suspends me from school and I begin to take over the Louis Group.
Afterwards, I study and work at the same time.
Life is very busy. The burden is so heavy that I could hardly breathe.
When I finally have the time and go to find Jane, I only get the news that she has already transferred to another school.
Perhaps, we are not destined to meet.
The Viagra has been kept in my room for several years until it expired and was accidentally thrown away by the servant.
I have made great effort to look for it but fail.
The only thing left is the photos secretly taken.
Perhaps she gives me that gift just on a whim. After that, she lives her own life and forgets me.
But what should I do?
Her look is deeply engraved in my heart and cannot be erased.
In many tossing and turning nights, she is in my dreams, smiling sweetly at me. She is so beautiful.
But the reality is always cruel.
After grandpa retires, the Louis Group suffers a difficult time. To get the company back on track, I must marry the daughter of the
Jordan family.
The first time I met Whitney is at the Civil Affairs Bureau.
I know this woman has loved me for more than ten years. Her eyes on me are filled with love.

However, I have no feelings for her.
If my wife is not Jane, then it doesn't matter who she is.
After marrying Whitney, I have never touched her. Lawrence talks to me about this many times, but I evade it.
At first, she could stay calm and acts like a lady.
Later, she goes crazy and can't control herself.
As long as I have contact with any woman, she will do terrible things to that woman.
She begs me many times. She begs me to do that thing with her. I don't even want to look at her, how could I have desire for
her?
I know it's not fair to her.
However, I have no choice.
I have already forced myself to marry her. I can't force myself to do more.
Whitney becomes more and more insane. She even has mental problems.
I feel guilty about her, but I could do nothing for her.
That day, Lawrence invites me to the bar for a drink and wants to talk to me about Whitney.
Actually, I don't hear what he says.
After several cups, Lawrence knows that he couldn't persuade me, so he sighs and goes back.
I also leave the bar and get into my car.
However, there is a subtle feeling.
As if something important will happen in the next second.
I look out of the window and see a woman running towards me, with disheveled hair.

Before I could react, the door of my car is opened.
She gets into the passenger seat and slams the door shut.
I have never let any woman sit in my car.
I frown and say to her in a cold voice, "Get out of the car."
The woman turned her head and anxiously said to me, "Please ... Drive."
Seeing her delicate and flushed face, I am instantly stunned.
Time seems to have returned to ten years ago.