I Will Escape

SABRINA'S POV

Dominic hasn't left my side. I am so lucky to have him as my mate. I can tell that he is worried about me. I have been so tired I have just been sleeping. Wanting to get the strength to be the leader that the pack needs, but my body is exhausted. I know that I'm wasting time resting, but I can't help myself. I am just so tired it's like I can't control myself.

I'm shocked I'm not waking up to nightmares. It has been so long that I have been able to sleep through the night without screaming myself awake, it has to be because of Dominic. Being in his arms just makes me feel safe and relaxed. I love him so much that words could never express my feelings for him. I want to protect him at all times because I could never risk his life for anything. I love him too much.

I love the affection that he shows to our baby. Especially when he is talking to my belly as he rubs it. When he kisses my belly I feel tingles in between my legs, wanting him so badly but too tired to fully react. It has been so long since I felt his touch; I have been longing for it. The feeling of being intimate gives me anxiety. I know that I should not feel this way, but I do.

What is wrong with me, he is my mate he would never do the things that Alex has done to me? I'm just exhausted from all of it. I don't want to be touched, not now. How do I tell him that I know he's going to expect it, but I'm just not ready? I don't want to make him feel bad or angry. So, I don't make it noticeable that he is making me react to him. Knowing that I do not want to act on it. I pretend that he isn't affecting me, not in wanting to fuck him kind of way.

I am feeling better, not sure how long it has been, but I'm starting to feel fully rested, shocked by how good it feels. Loving not being so damn tired and weak. I hate feeling that way. I don't want anyone to see me as weak. They would be terribly misled.

I set up in bed, looking around, wondering where Dominic is. I feel jazz trying to speak to me; I want to ignore her, but I know I need to forgive her because she is my wolf. As hard as it may be to forgive her I remember everything we have been through, and she is what kept me strong and not give up. I think that is why her betrayal was so hard to take. I decide it's time to forgive her and let her speak out knowing it's the right thing to do; I need her just as much as she needs me.

“Sabrina, we need to choose a Beta. I have a person in mind now that you are their leader.”

“What do you mean I am the leader now?”

“Come on now Sabrina you are the new Alpha it is time to choose our second in command and I know who he should be.”

"Wait, don't you think that it should be Tonya, our sister.”

"Sabrina, she is too weak to be our second in command. I know that you would want her, but we both know that she is not fit.”

I don't understand why Jazz thinks that Tonya is not fit to be our second in command. She is strong. She went through all that I have gone through. She would be a great leader also. I need to know why Jazz doesn't want Tonya as our Beta. I then realize that Jazz is in my thoughts. Jazz goes to respond.

“Sabrina I know that you would love for your sister to rule with you, but we need to be smart, we need to choose someone that already knows the role. Someone who will not just agree with you because you are, in fact, their blood. Someone that will fight you if your decision you're about to make is wrong even if you think it's right.”

"Well Jazz, who do you think is the perfect fit to be second in command my Beta?”

“I think I know who the Beta should be, Damien. He is strong as a warrior; he trains those who don't have any experience and turns them into warriors. He is smart, and he knows the role of a Beta since he already was one in his last pack. His bloodline is strong, and he will stand up to you if he needs to."

“I agree Damien is a great choice. He is strong but besides that, he cares about people wanting them to be strong, just as strong as if not stronger. He trains other wolves to defeat those who try to hurt them. Jazz I think that we for once agree that Damian will be the Beta.”