I Will Escape

After my wolf connects with her mate, I know we need to keep moving. We can't waste time. We need to get as far away from here as possible. I don't want to go back, I want to be free. I feel bad not connecting with Dominic in human form, but I mind linking my father and Dominic “we need to get going we can have a reunion another time we will catch up later.”

1 feel bad not connecting with Dominic, but there is no time we need to go as far as possible. With Dominic being so slow, it's going to take longer than necessary. I love him, but I don't want to be recaptured. I'm so tired of caring more about other people than myself. Now that it's not about me, it's about my child I need to consider protecting myself. I don't want to be distant from him, I love him. I am just so tired I want all of this to come to an end. I am not sure how much more I can really take on. I am sort of irritated that know one really did not get anywhere with coming up with a plan. Wondering how long I would have been there until they came to rescue me. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this, I am just exhausted. I don't know how much longer I could protect all those around me, not caring about myself. I am also shocked by Jazz's actions lying to me, I have been blocking her out since she connected with her mate. I thought I would at least let her connect again with him. As for her and me, I don't know if I can forgive her. She did it out of spite. I know it was because I did not listen to her about Bridget. I understand her not wanting the torture but neither did I. It wasn't something that I asked for, but I also couldn't sacrifice someone else for my happiness. I knew Bridget could not be trusted, but she was young, and she needed help. She was Dominic's little sister, how was I supposed to just leave her with no one. I still don't know how I am going to tell them that she is dead. I have so much to figure out, and I am not sure how to do it. I am so lost in my thoughts while I'm running I did not realize I am running alone. I slow down, waiting for everybody else not knowing I was so far ahead. I know that I have more power than all of them. I honestly think if they truly knew they would be afraid. I see their Wolf's coming. I wait I can see the sadness in Dominic's wolf's eyes. I want to comfort him, but I don't know what to say. I'm lost.

So, I start to run once again, hoping I feel better trying to find what I've lost. Not knowing what I am looking for, maybe just myself. I tried to keep my pace down. I don't want to run too far ahead just in case they need me. I am sad, but I don't want them to see it. I should be happy I am free. Knowing that I am truly not free until alpha Alex is dead he will never stop coming for me I know it. Now that I escaped him again, he's going to be even more angry. Knowing that there is no plan in place here. That I'm going back to the cabin with no plan of survival. How are we going to fight him are we going to be able to? If he just shows up, will we be able to protect ourselves?

We need to be able to defeat him and gain control of his pack. I don't know where to start but I will have to figure it out. I hate how no one takes this as seriously as we need to take it. I can't start enjoying life until I know that I am safe from ever being captured again. I know that there was nothing they could do about me being captured. It was my fault I could have run but I didn't. I know that anyone trying to save me without a plan would have been a suicidal mission. It's almost like I wish that somebody would have tried. I wonder if I am being selfish. I don't know.

I am getting nervous, not sure how things are going to go once we get back to the cabin. How Tonya is going to react to me escaping. I know that she will be happy to see me, but she is going to realize how much danger we all are in. I need a break as I stop to take a break. I'm scared of what is going to happen. I don't want to stop, but I need to.

Jazz comes through “Sabrina I'm sorry, please let me in.” I pretend that I don't hear her, I don't want to listen to her. Even though I'm full of emotion wanting to talk to her, but I refuse. As I watch my father and Dominic getting closer, I'm becoming nervous. I don't want them to see any kind of weakness that I have.

Dominic's mind links me. Sabrina is everything ok you look like you are worried.”

“Everything is fine. I'm just exhausted, worried about what is to come.”

“Sabrina we will deal with whatever comes our way. I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you.”

“Dominic I don't want to get into all that right now, please. We need to get going. I would like to be back at the cabin as soon as possible.”

I take off before he can respond. I don't want to talk about everything that has happened. I lived it. I don't want to relive it by talking about it. I just want to forget all of this and move on. I just want to get back to where I left off, but I don't even think that is possible. I just want to find myself for the first time I just feel lost.