Chapter 38
Belle's POV
"Madame?" Yuri asked when he noticed my silent sobs. I'm trying to face the opposite direction to hide my tears from him but the man is quite persistent. He sat beside me in bed, enveloped his arms around my waist and softly pulled me toward him. He then held my chin to make me face him.
"The Boss is heading back to the hotel as we speak." He continued gently. Using is other hand, he took a hanky from his chest pocket and wipes it on my face.
This man is really sweet. Well, all of Nikolai's men I guess. They are frightening to say the least, given that they are mobsters but there's a side of them that people dont get to see. They are affectionate and gentle. And they care a lot, especially when it comes to the Mafia, our family.
"Yuri. I'm fine, you don't have to do this."
It's as if he did not hear me, he just continues wiping my face.
Seconds later Nikolai came barging in the room. I was able to gather a tiny amount of strength to get up on my knees and throw myself to him. Nikolai instantly wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me to a tight embrace.
"Nikolai! Where did you go? When I woke up you were gone!"
"Shhh.. I'm here baby. Everything's gonna be okay."
"But where did you go?!"
"You wanted space, so I gave you space even if it was against my damn instincts."
Right. What is wrong with you crazy woman!
Nikolai removed himself from the embrace and cupped my face. He made small kisses on my lips, nose and around my face like he really missed me. It hasnt been that long since he left but why does it feel like its been forever?
"Now, where else do you want to go? After Moscow, do you want to go to Paris? How about Milan?"
"I want to go back to New York, Nikolai."
He sighed, "Baby, if this is about what happened--"
"It's done. I have made my decision. I want to go back to New York and I want to start anew. Just the two of us Nikolai. I'm fine in a small house or at the penthouse. Wherever you choose I don't care, just as long as it will only be us. You, me and our baby."
"Did you and Alexei talk about this?" He asked.
I thought by now he and Alexei talked about what happened. Obviously, Nikolai doesnt have a clue that his brother and I have broken up.
I removed myself from him and sat on the edge of the bed to rub my legs so that I can stand on my own. "Yes. I told him that we are better off this way."
Nikolai's temper has quickly changed. "And? I'm sure as fuck that he did not want this to happen!"
"Sure." I replied blankly as I stand up to gather my things.
"Did you give him the chance to explain his side?" He continued.
"I asked him if he sees Yelena whenever he kisses and makes love to me. I also asked him if he loves me just because I look like Yelena. So yes Nikolai, I gave him the chance to explain."
He looked at me with a furrowed eyebrows, "Why are you so worked up about Alexei and Yelena? She's dead Belle! My sister is dead! "
Oh my god. I cant believe Nikolai would even think of me this way. "I have nothing against Yelena! All I was asking from Alexei was his honesty! I want to know the truth! I want to know if he's really in love with me! That I'm not just a phase in his grief. In your grief!"
This is just all too much. I turned my back on Nikolai, went inside the bathroom and turned on the shower to silence the sobs that are about to burst out of my mouth.
Dimitri and Nikolai talking on the phone.
Dimitri: He's been pretty fucking crazy and restless, Boss. I don't know what happened but whatever it is, Alexei is not doing good. When he arrived, he killed one of the three motherfuckers we caught near the house without getting what we need first. Now the other two are so fucked up I'm not sure if they can still rat.
Nikolai: Shit. Where is he now?
Dimitri: He's at Zora. I'm sure he's not there right now to talk some business. What's going on Boss? I thought you don't go to pussy club no more because of Madame? I know I wouldnt if she's my wife. You know what I mean?
Nikolai: Shut the fuck up Dimitri! This does not reach Belle no matter what. Put a plug to whoever sees him there. I don't care how you do it, get Alexei out of there and bring him to Matushka. I'm gonna deal with him when I get back.
Dimitri: Fuck. This bad huh?
Nikolai: Just do what I tell you to do. Call me when it's done.
Dimitri: Got it.
Belle's POV
V
After taking a shower, I already got dressed for our trip back to New York. I want to look nothing like a sad and abandoned wife in the middle of her own honeymoon, so wore the Givenchy off shoulder long sleeve white dress and the Alexander McQueen nude scarpin shoes that I found in the walk in closet in our suite. Perhaps my husband had everything prepared when he told me that I don't have to worry about packing my clothes. I am not surprised.
I'm already applying my lipstick when my husband came back inside our room. He then took is clothes off and changed to another shirt while glancing at me for a little while. I could tell by his troublesome face that what's happening between Alexei and I are already getting into him.
When he's already trying to put on his neck tie, I stood up from my seat and took over. Without looking at him directly, I know and I can feel that he is looking down at me intently.
"I'm sorry." He said softly while palming my jawline just below my left ear. "I'm sorry if shit went down like this. I never planned for this to happen. Youre right, I owe you this honeymoon and I fucking screwed up again."
This is one of the qualities of Nikolai that I adore dearly. He will not hesitate to say that he is sorry whenever we argue or fight even if it's not entirely his fault.
"Nikolai, I just want to move on. We are having a baby and I want to spend my time taking care of you and our little one."
My husband slowly went to his knees, wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his forehead on my abdomen, "Little nut, Papa is going out of his mind. Youre the only one that is making sense to me. Your mother is so fucking stubborn, Papa wants to spank the shit out of her right now."
I shook my head and rolled my eyes on him, "Nikolai, language."
Seconds later, someone cleared his throat and it's Yuri. "We're all set." He said.
Nikolai however did not even bother move from his postion. Instead, he plants kisses on and around my abdomen while holding my hips in position. "Give us more time Yuri."
Yuri just nodded and closed the door on his way out. Nikolai stood up and wrapped his right arm around me while brushing some strands of my hair away from my face. "Ya tebya lyublyu." He said low and hoarse.
"Ya tebya lyublyu Nikolai. I'm sorry about Yelena. I know you love your sister so much. I never intended anything bad against her name. I would never, ever do that."
"I know baby. I know. I'm just mad at myself for putting you up to this. I'm sorry. We will figure this out okay?"
"Okay but I have made my decision about Alexei. And I want you to respect that decision Nikolai."
"We will live seperate from my brother if that's what you want. He will stay at the penthouse while you and me will live in our new home."
"New home? How about the old house? Since Alexei will be staying at the penthouse-"
"The old house has been compromised. You are safer in the mansion."
I did not inquire further. What's
important is that we are going to live seperate from Alexei. I know it will
take time to adjust from the new set up, both for me and Nikolai but it is better this way. I wont be able to move on if I get to see him everyday. He will just work his charm on me or whatever it is that they are doing that weakens me in the knees everytime they are near me.
Distance away from him is all I need
to finally forget him.
Yuri and Nikolai drinking and talking in the private jet. Boris is inside one of the bunks while Belle is in the biggest room, sound asleep.
They just had a humorous conversation about that time when Alexei beat the hell out of Calvin (Amy's ex-fling) to force the man not to press charges against Belle and Amy when the two broke into his home. And then there's a short silence.
Nikolai: (Drinks the scotch all the way down) "What do you think of your Madame, Yuri?"
Yuri: "What's that?"
Nikolai: "What do you think of my wife? (Stands up and slowly walks beside Yuri's seat)
Yuri: "Boss-"
Nikolai: (Bends down to whisper on Yuri's ear) "What's the word that pops inside your head when you see her? When youre inches away from her? When you TOUCH my wife?"
Yuri: (Attempts to stand up but Nikolai pushed down Yuri's shoulders to put him back to his seat)
Nikolai: You do what I tell you to do.
And I'm telling you now, sit the fuck down Yuri. Now, don't you think we should address this tiny problem head on, instead of you (gripped Yuri's jaw and shook it tightly) going behind my back and fondling your way to my wife in my own honeymoon!?" (Nikaloi clenches his jaw as he removes his hand from the tight grip) >>>>>>>>>>>>>>