Forbidden: Part One – Chapter 15
I woke slowly, feeling deliciously warm.
The sweet cinnamon roll scent I’d already started associating with safety surrounded me. A soft blanket was laid over me and underneath me was… I jolted awake fully, remembering that I had fallen asleep on Cam.
“Shh, it’s okay. You’ve been asleep for about an hour,” he said, his hand resuming its soothing path up and down my back.
“I didn’t mean to fall asleep on you. Am I crushing you?” I asked, biting my lip.
Cam snorted. “Baby girl, you could lie on top of me all day, every day, and not crush me.”
I blushed, pressing my face against his chest before trying to scoot off of him. No matter what he said, I was sure he’d be more comfortable if I moved.
Cam’s arms tightened around me.
“Please don’t,” he said, his voice almost pleading. “I need a few more minutes.”
My body melted with contentment as I settled back on top of him. I tried not to second guess everything and embrace my instincts like Sam suggested.
“We need to order more things for this room,” Cam said as he massaged the tension out of my shoulders. “It’s not good enough for you.”
“You don’t need to get me anything,” I murmured as I closed my eyes, holding back a whimper at how good his hands felt. I had only been here a couple of hours, but I already hoped these alphas would keep me. I didn’t want to come across as needy or high-maintenance.
“We definitely do, sweetheart. Need to get you everything you could need or want. If you don’t like the house, we’ll get a new one.”
He couldn’t possibly mean that, could he? I cracked my eyes open and took in his serene expression.
“You can’t just change houses for me.”
“Of course, we can,” he snorted. “You say the word, we’ll move. We have our other home up north that’s more secluded. If you want to be in a different part of the city, we’ll just buy a new house.”
“You’re ridiculous,” I said with a smile, snuggling back into his chest. “I love this house.” Cam gave me a little squeeze, the steady beat of his heart creating a calming rhythm.
“Why were you crying earlier?” he asked.
I tensed, not sure what to say. I was used to hiding my emotions, but I found myself wanting to be honest with Cam.
“I got really overwhelmed,” I finally said. It was the truth but didn’t reveal too much.
“Tell me how to make it better,” he demanded.
I hid my smile in the crook of his neck. That was cute.
“You already did when you came up here,” I said, running my nose along his neck and breathing deeply. “I’m confused why I feel so safe with you all when I don’t even know you. I needed time to process everything, but when I was alone, I just wanted to be with you all.”
“You feel comfortable with us because you’re our mate,” he said, his voice filled with… satisfaction? “Your omega recognizes me and knows I would never hurt you. Leaving the DC without you felt like I was being ripped in two. I’ll try to give you space when you need it, but it will be hard for me. Let me know if it’s too much and you need me to back off.”
I nodded, my mind wandering as I traced the abstract patterns of his tattoos up and down his arm. I wondered what Ben and Theo were doing and found myself missing them. Maybe Cam and I could go downstairs, or maybe they could come up in bed with us. I was imagining what it would be like to be sandwiched between all three alphas when I noticed Cam’s scent turning bitter, like burnt pastry.
“What’s wrong?” I asked, my chest constricting with anxiety. Did I do something wrong?
Cam rolled us so we were both on our sides facing each other and tenderly brushed my hair out of my face.
“The DC sent us documents about your care and records from your time at the Academy.”
I stiffened. I didn’t know what exactly the Center had sent over, but I knew it wouldn’t be good.
“Do you not want me anymore after reading it? Or do Ben and Theo not want me here now? Is that why they’re not here?” I asked, my voice high-pitched. Tightness built in my chest, forcing me to push myself into a seated position.
“What are you talking about?” Cam asked in a low voice, sitting up with me.
“I’m sure it didn’t say good things about me. I promise a lot of it’s not true, but I’m still damaged. You deserve a better omega than me,” I responded, blinking quickly to keep my tears from spilling over.
Cam growled and pulled me onto his lap, his arms forming tight bands around my waist.
“Listen to me,” he said sternly. “You are not damaged, and we will never want anyone else. I’m so fucking pissed at how they treated you. I had to see you or I was going to go to the Center and kill them. You deserve to be fucking cherished, not punished or starved or whatever other shit they did to you.” He grasped my chin, forcing me to meet his gaze. “I never want to hear you talk badly about yourself again. If anyone else does, you tell me and I will take care of it.”
Cam’s intensity startled me, his protectiveness filling me with warmth.
“Theo and Ben stayed downstairs so they didn’t overwhelm you because they’re better alphas than me. But I’m finding it hard to care since now I’m here with you and they’re jealous as fuck. I know you have doubts, and I understand why after seeing how other alphas have treated you. But you have to know, sweetheart, that we are all in.”
I moved without thinking, straddling Cam’s lap. He hadn’t told me what had happened at the DA was my fault. He was angry for me. A warm, happy feeling suffused me as Cam pulled me in close, one hand on my ass and the other gripping the back of my neck. I wrapped my arms around his neck, wanting to be as close to him as possible. My movement caused his cock to line up with my core, sending a jolt of pleasure through me.
My body froze as doubt rushed through me. What was I doing? I barely knew this alpha and now I was pressed up against him. I waited for panic to take hold, but all I felt was pleasure. The torturous punishments the alphas at the DA delivered if an omega was caught masturbating had ensured I never touched myself. I’d never felt this way before. Now I wanted to stop thinking, stop over-analyzing, and get more of this feeling. My omega took over. I experimented with rolling my hips against Cam, and he groaned.
“Fuck, baby, you’re so beautiful.”
He pulled me tighter into him and his lips crashed against mine, somehow soft and hard at the same time. My first kiss! Or, at least, the first one I’d wanted.
He nipped my lower lip before deepening the kiss, continuing to rock me against him in a steady rhythm, his cock hitting the perfect spot that made me moan. A gush of slick soaked my underwear and I whined, embarrassed by the wetness.
“So fucking sexy, you smell so good,” Cam murmured, not allowing me to pull away and peppering kisses down my jaw and neck. “I want your slick to coat me, want to be drenched in your scent.”
He moved his hand under my sweatshirt, cupping my breast with his hand before rolling my nipple between his fingers. Even through the fabric of my bra, the slight pinch pushed my arousal higher, and I ground against him until my legs trembled. I sucked on his lush bottom lip before pressing my tongue into his mouth. He growled, sending vibrations through me, and grasped my hip with his hand, urging me against him faster. I whimpered as the pleasure grew, wanting more but feeling scared at the same time. It felt like I was going to fall off a precipice and I wasn’t sure I was brave enough to let go. I slowed my movements, overwhelmed with how good everything felt and unsure if I could handle more.
“What’s wrong?” Cam asked, concern etched on his face.
“I’m scared,” I whimpered. “It’s too much.”
Cam pulled me closer and pressed tender kisses on my cheeks and eyelid.
“I’ve got you, baby girl. You can let go. I’ll catch you.”
I believed him. The familiar warning sensation in my body screaming not safe was silent. I rolled my hips against him, the pleasure continuing to build until I shattered with Cam’s name on my lips. Electric shocks of pleasure tingled through my body until I felt like I was floating. I took a shuddering breath as I collapsed onto him, my limbs feeling warm and heavy.
“So goddamn perfect, baby girl. So fucking beautiful when you come,” he murmured, pressing his face to my hair and breathing deeply.
“I didn’t know it would feel that good,” I said after my heart rate had finally slowed.
“What do you mean?” Cam asked, his hand stilling on my back.
“Umm, you know, coming. It exceeded the hype. Ten out of ten recommend.”
“You’ve never come with someone before?”
“Yeah. Or… at all,” I said, squirming, suddenly feeling embarrassed.
“Sweetheart, are you saying you’ve never had an orgasm before?” he asked, his voice strangled.
“Omegas aren’t allowed until we join a pack,” I whispered.
“Who says?” he asked sharply.
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
My face grew hot. Cam and I were wrapped up in a peaceful bubble, and I didn’t want to let memories from the DA intrude.
For a moment, it seemed like Cam would press the issue. Then he let out a long exhale. “Okay, sweetheart, we don’t have to talk about it now.”
I relaxed into his embrace as he held me in silence for a few moments.
“If I had known it was your first one, I would have made it better for you,” he grumbled.
“Better than that? Not sure it could get better,” I said, giving him a teasing smile.
Cam quickly flipped us so he was lying on top of me. He kept most of his weight on his forearms, but I loved the feel of his body against mine.
“That sounds like a dare,” he said, a wicked smile on his face.
“Maybe it was,” I responded, trying to sound flirty. His hair was still in a bun and my fingers itched to take it down. I wondered what it would be like to kiss him with my fingers threaded in his hair.
“I’m going to make you come every way possible, over and over. You’re going to be so overwhelmed with pleasure you won’t be able to move. But right now, I think my brothers are seconds away from breaking down this door if I keep you to myself a moment longer.”
Slick drenched my underwear at his words. My first orgasm had truly lived up to the hype and I wanted to experience it again, but I was also missing Theo and Ben.
“Let’s go downstairs,” I said, pressing my lips against Cam’s for a quick kiss.
Cam looked like he wasn’t sure if he would let me up. “We won’t talk about it now, but I want you to know I’m fucking pissed with whatever bullshit the DA did to you. And, because I’m a selfish bastard, I’m also fucking thrilled your first orgasm was with me.”
I blushed as Cam got up and gently pulled me to standing next to him.
“I need to change,” I said, wrinkling my nose at how wet my underwear was. I looked over at Cam and saw a dark wet spot on the front of his pants.
“Is that from me? I’m sorry,” I said, my face burning with embarrassment.
“Umm, no, I mean, it’s not. It was just really hot, seeing you come…” Cam trailed off, and I saw he was blushing. A grin spread across my face as I realized what had happened.
“Did you come, too?” I asked.
Cam nodded curtly, his blush deepening.
“Why are you embarrassed?” I asked, confused.
“Just don’t want you to think I’m a fucking teenager who won’t make it good for you,” he mumbled.
“Did I not make you feel good?” I asked, worried.
Cam drew me in, a firm hand at the back of my neck.
“That was the hottest fucking experience of my life. You made a grown-ass man come in his fucking pants.”
“Oh good,” I said, smiling. I felt proud that I had made Cam feel good, too.
Cam laughed. “Fucking cute. Alright, change your clothes and then come downstairs. We need to feed you.”
He kissed me on my forehead before heading downstairs, leaving me feeling more relaxed and settled than I could remember.