Chapter 348
Chapter 348
I pull myself out of the shower a ridiculously long time later, only really leaving because the water that was falling on my shoulders had grown colder and colder until I was shivering. I towel myself off, shaking my head a little to consider that while I’m all cried out, my tears didn’t bring the relief that I thought they would.
Because honestly, I’m still a wreck about this.
I know what I’m supposed to do now, I think as I wrap my big fluffy white robe around myself and pass into my bedroom, sitting down hard on my vanity’s stool, still shivering a little. I’m supposed to leave. Kent gave me his answer to my ultimatum – I said I would go if he didn’t tell me, and he didn’t. So now…
I’m supposed to go.
But god damn it, where to?
And honestly, I’m fully aware of the fact that I don’t want to go. anywhere. I want to stay right here, with Daniel and with Kent – who are now basically my family. I want to stay here, and work things out, and convince Kent that we can fix this –
But really? Is that even worth my time?
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I shake my head al my pale face in the mirror as I start to brush the tangles out of my wet hair, feeling very pathetic. Kent has demonstrated time and time again that he doesn’t really trust me, that I’m just…a pleasant distraction for him. One of his many, many mistresses.
Nothing special.
And if I continue to let him treat me like that…
I mean, I know it was part of the contract. But I always thought
it was more.
But now that I know it’s how he really feels…
Will I ever be able to respect myself again if I continue in a relationship with a man who just views me as a girl who he just considers his pretty little secret? Who comes to his room every night at his beck and call, and to whom he doesn’t give anything in return?
I scowl at myself a little when I think this, because I’m fully aware that he has given me things in return – a great deal of money, a horse, a beach house I’ve never been to –
–
But nothing…nothing that I really want. Nothing I really care about.
And as I stare at myself in the mirror I make myself say the words I’ve been avoiding for a long time now.
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“I want him,” I confess to myself, my voice soft. “All of him.”
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And then the tears start to slide down my face again as I realize it’s not something that’s ever been on the table. That I’ll never, ever get this thing that I very, very much want.
Not as cried out as I thought I was, I think, looking down at my hands sitting limply in my lap.
I’m still crying a few minutes later when a sharp knock comes up
at the door.
To emotionally exhausted to even really be curious, I slowly stand up and cross to the door. When I open it, no one’s standing there, but I’m not surprised. I look down, fully expecting to see a little note delivered.
‘I’m not disappointed.
I pick up the note, bringing it into my room and turning the lock. after I close my door. I open the note without even moving to my bed and quickly read the three words printed there in Kent’s tiny, precise handwriting.
Come downstairs, Fay.
And I stare at it, desperately wanting to see this as a peace offering, as Kent wanting to talk, to make things right.
But it’s not. I know it’s not.
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Because it’s not an apology, is it? Or him taking anything back. Or him demonstrating that he trusts me. It’s just him, calling to me, telling me to come to his side. So he can do what he always does distract me with sex so that I forgive him and move on without a second thought.
But I’m not going to do that anymore.
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