Cyber Love

I laughed as I heard Zeke groan into my headset, he had just died for the hundredth time, getting irritated.

"Why am I so shit at this game?" He groaned and my laughter wasn't going anywhere.

"We can play something else," I chuckled.

"Easy for you to say, you're good at everything." My heart tugged at his words, I wasn't used to men being so open about my ability to beat them at video games. I was always made to feel like a freak.

"Anyway I'm glad I fucking died, I want to speak to you." His voice sounded urgent and I sat up.

"What is it?" I asked, my voice shaky.

"When are we going to see eachother Sash?" His voice sounded irritated still and it made my heart drop.

"Erm," I wanted to see Zeke, like I desperately wanted to see him, but I was panicking. Was I going to be good enough for him?

"Sasha" he breathed out. "You want to see me?"

"Of course" I hurried out.

"Then let's do it, we've been talking for ages and I want to fucking see you". I swallowed hard at his words. "It's been how long? Don't get me wrong, I love cuming with you but I want to do it while you're in the same room." Me and Zeke had been video calling and talking on the phone for about three months now. He had asked me loads of times to come and see him and I kept skirting the subject. I truly didn't know why. "What's the issue Sash?" His voice was making me panic and I groaned, my head hitting the back of my sofa.

"I'm scared," I whispered.

"Of what?" He chuckled slightly, improving my mood.

"What if you don't like me?" My voice was still quiet and I slammed my eyes shut as he laughed.

"I do like you, you know I do. Why would that change if I met you? That makes no sense." He breathed out and I felt a tear behind my eye. "I'm not going to put pressure on you, but if you don't want to see me then we need to have that discussion." Zeke’s voice went sad and I sat up.

"I'm sorry, I want to see you, like yesterday." I swallowed. "I'm really worried that you aren't going to fancy me in person".

"Sasha shut up," he laughed. "I've seen every part of you. I fancy you, trust me. I just want to fucking show you now." I laughed with him, my shyness slowly fading.

“Let's do it. When?” I asked, trying to fight my nerves.

"Can you book some leave? Next Friday to Monday?" I swallowed hard, it was Saturday already, I only had a week to prepare.

"Yes it should be okay. Am I staying at yours?" I didn't know what I was expecting him to say and smiled as he spoke.

“Yes of course. Are you okay to drive or I can pick you up from the station?"

“Let me check one second". I spoke, getting my phone off the side of the sofa. I quickly went to train line website and found a return journey to Manchester Piccadilly. “There's one here, leaving King's Cross at two in the afternoon on Friday, will get to you for four”. I said, my heart in my throat.

“How much? Let me buy it for you.”

“It's seventy. No, I'll get it, I don’t mind.” I said shyly, butterflies in my stomach.

“Okay, book it now," I laughed while bringing the website back up.

“You sure?” I asked, nearly biting my hand off.

“You know I'm sure, are you sure?” I went to respond and he jumped in again. "Baby, tell me if you don't want this". His words broke my heart and I realised I was being a super bitch. Me trying to avoid seeing him so I didn't feel insecure had made him feel insecure. It wasn't fair and I needed to jump in head first here.

"I'm a hundred percent sure. I'm sorry". I smiled again as he chuckled down my ear.

"Don't say sorry." His voice was a whisper. I let out a breath as I went through the process of booking the tickets. Luckily my phone already had my card details and it took me minutes before a confirmation email popped up. “Done”, I breathed out.

"It's booked?" Zeke’s voice sounded surprised and it made me laugh.

"Yeah, booked." I tried to smile down my nerves.

“Boom! I can’t wait" he said. I giggled shyly looking down. “I'll pick you up from the station, I might get one of those embarrassing cards with your name on it to hold up." He cackled and I put my head back, rolling my eyes at him.

“Don’t do that" I laughed.

“I'm a hundred percent doing that. Now tell me, what are you going to do to me when you see me?” I giggled again like a schoolgirl.

“What do you want me to do to you?”

“Embarrass everyone in the station by climbing me like a tree”

“Zeke really?” I laughed covering my face.

“Sash, I can’t wait to see you. You definitely are getting that cuddle”. I smiled then, my heart completely full.