Cruel Destiny

Natasha POV

For some seconds, I was surprised and I didn't know what to do.

Should I push him? Or should I kiss him back? These questions were roaming in my head, making me baffled.

I got over that shock when he pulled back. I looked at his face and he seemed.... happy.

His face had much emotion like happiness, contentment, relief, and on the other hand, I had no impression on my face.

I was very confused and I don't know how to talk to him after that awkward moment.

I have never felt that he had that kind of feeling for me. Maybe because I was so lost in my grief that I had ignored his feelings. "I... " I started to say something but couldn't utter a single word.

"I am sorry, Tasha. I shouldn't have kissed you like that. I know you are hurting and I just, I am sorry." He apologized with a sigh.

He then stared into my eyes and said "I love you, Natasha. I fell for you when I saw you for the first time. You were looking so afraid and confused. I felt an immense need to protect you from everyone."

I bit my lips to stop myself from breaking his heart. I know how it felt when your heart got broken.

And I don't want that for him. He doesn't deserve that pain and he doesn't deserve someone like me.

"It's okay. I know you are scared right now. I will never force you, Tasha. You can take all the time you want. I am here for you." He whispered with a small smile.

I shook my head while trying to stop myself from crying, I said "I am sorry."

A sob left my lips and I continued "I don't have any feeling for you. I always considered you my friend. I am sorry."

I wanted to hate myself when I saw the painful expression on his face. He was looking just like I was. Heartbroken.

"Just give me a chance. I will never let you regret your decision, Tasha. I understand that you are scared, but please don't shut me out." He pleaded

He took a step toward me and stood very close to me and put his hand on my stomach.

Scarlett chose that moment to let her presence known. She kicked softly when she felt his hand on my stomach.

"If it's about Scarlett, then I promise you that I will take care of her too. I am ready to be her father. I will never let her know or feel that she isn't my daughter." He said softly while caressing my belly. I sobbed hard when I heard his words. He is so sweet but I am not the right one for him.

He doesn't deserve a damaged girl who couldn't even save herself from someone.

He deserves a girl who is pure and not shattered. I am a damaged soul who has no idea what to do next in her life.

And there is Liam too. He had warned me to stay away from him.

I had underestimated him last time and as a result, I got raped. So this time I don't want to mess with him.

Scott doesn't love me. He is just infatuated with me. No one can love me.

I am cursed. Love is not in my destiny. I'm getting used to that fact.

I have a feeling that in the future, my Scarlet will not love me too.

I felt uncomfortable when I thought about that. I don't think I will be able to handle that.

But I won't stop her from living her life and will never stop loving her.

I will be there for her as long as she wants me. After that, I will accept death with open arms.

I can't say yes to him. He deserves better and after meeting the girl, he will forget me.

"I am sorry. I can't love anyone. Scott, I am damaged and cursed. You will never find your happiness with me. I will ruin you. I don't want that. You have been a good friend but now I think we should stop meeting each other." I confessed with a heavy heart.

I took a step back and his hand fell from my stomach making me feel empty.

But it's for his good. He should get a better partner. The one who will love him.

"Scott, I am not one for you. You will find someone who will love you the way you deserve." I let out a sob.

I turned my face to the side, not wanting to see his heartbroken expression.

"You should go. And please don't visit here again." I announced.

I felt his soft hands on my cheeks and he turned my face toward him, making me face him.

He leaned his forehead to mine and I closed my eyes. I felt tears on my cheeks but this time it was not mine.

I felt like a bitch for breaking his heart. But what can I do? My heart is broken too.

I need to heal myself before thinking about loving someone again.

I know I am being cruel but I don't want to give him false hope that in the future I will love him.

"I am here for you, Tasha. Remember that. I am only one call behind." He muttered

With tears falling down my eyes, I said "I won't call you ever. You have to stop thinking about me."

I pushed him gently and looked dead into his eyes and said "Scott you should leave and never turn back. You should find a nice girl who will return your love."

He was about to cut me off but I showed him my palm and continued "You will forget about me when you meet her. Believe me, I am easy to forget."

I let out a sad chuckle and added "I am tired of all these. I am sorry but I will never be able to love someone."

I took a step back and said "I gave him my heart and he shattered it brutally. He had ruined me for anyone else."

I took another step back "I just wish you would have appeared in my life before him. My life would have been different."

My back hit the wall when I took another step back and now there was a lot of difference between us.

"But now it's too late. I should focus on my life which is my baby. You should focus on your life." I told him with a sigh. "Leave Scott. Please don't make it hard for me. Let me live my life the way I want to." I pleaded with him Another tear fell from his eye making me want to wipe it. But I stopped myself because I don't want to get his hopes high. "As you wish, Tasha. I love you so much. Just remember that." He said and turned back and started to walk toward the door.

He opened the door and turned toward me. He sighed and left the house not before saying 'I love you' for the last time.

I heard the noise of the door slamming shut with a force. And now the apartment is silent just like always.

I took steps toward the couch and slumped down on it. I clutched my hair and pulled it.

I am bad. I'd done a bad deed for the first time and now god will punish me.

I shouldn't have broken his heart. I did the same with him which Liam had done with me.

Now there is no difference between me and him. We both are cruel. I have done a horrible thing.

Today was one of the difficult days of my life. I suffered a lot today.

First that corrupted officer and now this. My eyes were tired due to never-ending crying.

I fell asleep while crying, mourning the loss of the friendship which I had with Scott.

I just hope now I will be able to live in peace without any problems.

But as always my cruel destiny wouldn't let me rest.

I didn't know that the upcoming days are going to be a living nightmare for me.

Authors Note

Hello guys

Hope you liked it

So do you think that Natasha had done wrong here?

If yes then think about it from her POV. She just got raped 1 week ago and now she got to know about this.

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