Chapter 30: Face the reality..Face her.
After hearing Li Cheng, Su Yumi also became daze in her thoughts.
'Should i be happy or sad that my Seulbi is slowly regaining her childhood memories back?..Seulbi indeed has a lot of beautiful memories of her childhood but with every goodness..'
'..There is always bad..I don't know what she will feel after regaining all of her past memories..but I will be always by her side forever.' Su Yumi held Li Seulbi's hand.
The same thought was running in Li Cheng's mind as well. Li Cheng pursed his lips "Mother, Stay with Xiao Seulbi..I will be out for a moment."
Before Li Cheng could leave the room, he heard his mother's voice "Are you going out to drink again?"
Li Cheng stopped in his tracks. His back stiffened. He was indeed planning to get drunk tonight.
"Don't go. What will you get by drinking?..Alcohol can make you little stress free, But It can never solve your problem. I know you are feeling guilty and you want Xiao Seulbi to accept you as father by heart. So, Stop running away like this.."
"..I guess it's time for you to Face the reality..Face her. Confess all your wrongdoing and apologize to her. Though your small apologization cannot cover all your mistake..But i know that Xiao Seulbi will definitely feel somehow good. Stay here and take care of her." Su Yumi coldly said as she stood up and without looking at Li Cheng, she went to her room.
Li Cheng was still in his same position. Silence covered the room. He could hear the faint breathing of Li Seulbi who was sleeping soundly. Li Cheng gritted his teeth and slowly returned to bedside of Li Seulbi.
He took a deep breath and sat down looking at Li Seulbi. He stared at her for quite a long time before raising his voice "I am really sorry. I know that you hate me. And you should. I deserve this. But Please forgive me. When you will wake up, I will confess my wrongdoings and apologize to you.
As mother said, this can't cover my mistakes but i guess it can make you feel somehow good. You don't have to like your father, just forgive for my sins. " he lowered his head as tears rolled down his cheeks.
Next morning;
Li Seulbi slowly opened her eyes. Seeing the unfamiliar room before her eyes, She furrowed her brows. She tried to get up. Li Cheng who fell asleep not too long ago, became alert by Li Seulbi's sudden movement.
"Oh, Xiao Seulbi.. You woke up. Are you feeling alright?..Should i call Gong Xeng?."Li Cheng immediately asked.
On the other side, Li Seulbi was shocked. 'Am i still dreaming?'
Seeing there was no reply from Li Seulbi, Li Cheng raised his hand to touch her forehead for temperature. Before he can touch her forehead, Li Seulbi grasped his hand.
" So real.." She mumbled softly as she slowly caressed the back of his hand. Li Cheng was dumbfounded.' She thinks that she is dreaming'
Li Cheng looked at her tenderly before swapping the position of their hands. Now, Li Cheng was grasping Li Seulbi's hands.
"Xiao Seulbi, It is not dream. I am.. for real. Your father is infront of you, Dear." Li Seulbi eyes widened and she immediately retreated her hands out of his.
She looked around the room. Indeed it was Li Cheng's room. But what was she doing there..Li Seulbi was bewildered. She then slowly recalled the day before's events, finally understanding the situation.
There was awkward silence in the room.
"Xiao Seu-" Before Li Cheng could finish, Li Seulbi's hurried voice was heard "Fa-Father, I think it's time for me to head for school."
Li Seulbi abruptly stood up and was ready to leave the room, But Li Cheng next words stopped her for doing so.
"I am sorry." Li Cheng voice contained sadness and guilt.
Sorry for ..ignoring you until now, Sorry for not giving you paternal love, Sorry for not giving what you deserved, Sorry for making you feel lonely and sad, Sorry for not understanding, Sorry for torturing you like this, And Sorry for not giving you piggyback that time."
As the last words fell in Li Seulbi's ear, She felt like her energy was drenched out. She sat back in the bed with blank expression.
Li Cheng lowered his head "Xiao Seulbi, I know my simple sorry won't relief the pain you suffered since childhood, And i can't change the past now but We can surely change the future, Right?"