Chapter 50: Dreamer Moves His Club
I had decided that I would move my club house to Fort Wayne Indiana. I ruined my chances with Brook. Since that night she has not returned to Renegades club house to visit her cousins. She sold her house and moved across town. She stopped working in the tattoo shop and she won't talk to me.
I need to get over her. I told Renegade I was moving my club house to Indiana far enough away I can't just go to his club all the time. Yet close enough to still visit.
He told me not to treat Brook the way I was and he told me not to take that whore to my bedroom. I did it anyway. I lost her. I hope that one day she finds someone she can trust and not hate me anymore.
I knew she worked at the nursing home. I was told when she and Julie would take a cigarrate break. I had to see her one last time before I left town.
I saw that she was the woman I passed in the store that night. She had cut her beautiful hair. I also noticed that she was not happy. That was my doing. I was a jackass towards her.
I turned and walked down the hill and got on my bike. I started it and drove away from her for good. I am sure I will see her somewhere sometime.
I drove toward I75 and headed to Fort Wayne Indiana. I will be busy for the next few months getting the club house in order and getting ready for the ride to Sturgis. I will see her dancing that week but won't be able to get close to her.
Besides she doesn't want to see me anyway. It is best to keep it that way. I have a lot of thinking and work to do on changing how I treat women. Especially one I might want to date. I need to stop pushing them away.
One day I hope to have that second chance to find the woman that will want to be with me for the rest of our life's. I will never forget Brook. The smile she had when she looked at me when I was nice to her.
I can't even remember when she stopped smiling at me. I know that several members looked at her with longing. She was nice to all the members but kept her distance. Good bye Brook my first love. A love that never was and never could be because I was such an ass towards her.
I arrived in Indiana and rode to the club house. I walked inside and looked at my VP. It is hanging in your office. Thanks I said. I still have the picture taken of her standing on Renegades porch with her long hair handing down to the floor and looking over her shoulder.
The only thing I have to remind me of the short, sweet woman who was spontaneous. And to think it all started because of a fight over what she was wearing and I left her to find her own way to Renegades club.
I walked out of the office and yelled. Lets celebrate our move and new clubhouse. That is just what we did. But Brook will never be far from my mind.