The Stained Omega by Elle T Jefferson

His Rogue Omega: Chapter 120. 

Cas 

Looking out of the window I watch as Cas bids the group off to the Moon Ceremony. Thanks to The Elders and now Dean’s fast arrival, me and Cas decided it was best to send Rowan with some Pack members to at least give Everfur a presence for the first time in years. 

“Alright, let’s try this again.” I murmur to Dean as I sit down in the rocking chair that appeared this morning. I think Cas was sick of seeing me try to get comfortable in the bed, I will admit it’s much easier to feed Dean in the rocking chair. 

‘You mean try and feed.‘ Ghost taunts me, for some reason ever since Dean was born she’s been really snarky and a little mean to me. 

‘I’m trying.‘ I tell her as I pull my bra down and expose my n*pple to Dean’s squealing mouth, as normal he tries to latch on but he just can’t seem to get the idea. 

‘Animals in the wild do this, can you just feed him already.‘ Sighing I drop my head back as Dean continues to scream his little lungs out. He fed that first time but now we are two days in and he has not eaten a thing. I can’t help but feel like I’m failing him in some way. 

“No one ever taught me how to do this alright. I’ve just been given a pup and basically been expected to know what to do, I don’t understand why he isn’t feeding.” I feel the warm tears start to slide. down my face as the frustration becomes too much and I can’t contain my emotions any longer. It’s like a dam breaks and finally the river has overflown and there is no stopping it. 

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“Luna?” I sniffle and look up to see Sally pushing her way into the bedroom with a warm smile on her face. “Oh Eva.” Sally drops whatever she’s holding onto the bed and rushes over to me in the rocking chair. 

“He wont eat!” I wail, “he just screams and screams, he hates me!” Sally crouches down in front of us and puts a wrinkled hand on my knee, it’s a comforting gesture and one I find myself needing. 

“Eva? Angel, what’s wrong?” I tuck my face into my chest as Cas comes barrelling into the bedroom, I don’t want him to see me breaking down about our son. 

“Alpha, with all due respect, please leave and give me some time with Eva.” I’ve never heard Sally talk to Cas like that before and what’s even more shocking is Cas actually nods his head and leaves the bedroom. 

“You just kicked your Alpha out of his own room.” I sniffle as I giggle a little, Dean still continues to scream his little lungs out. 

“Well, Alpha or not he’s still a man and right now you need some help.” I watch as she crouches down next to me and starts to stroke at Dean’s full head of black hair, “babies are really good at sensing our moods. If you are tired and stressed, he will be too, it will make him not want to feed. So, pass him here and I’ll get him settled while you go and shower and then you can try again.” Reluctantly I hand Dean over and stand from the rocking chair. 

“Are you sure?” I ask her as Dean continues to scream, his tiny hands. are clenched in rage and his face is bright red. 

“I’m certain, once you have finished showering you can try again and if it still doesn’t work then I have brought a bottle up so he gets a little something in his tummy.” I’m swamped with guilt as I walk away from a crying Dean and shushing Sally, I leave them alone in the bedroom 

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to head into the adjoining bathroom. 

This bathroom is much bigger than the one in the basement, there is actually a bath in this one, it has little jets on it that I can’t wait to try out. The shower is massive with little water jets that blast you from the sides, I haven’t really had time to enjoy either of them but I will one day. Very aware that Dean is still screaming the Pack house down I quickly strip out of my sleep wear and step into the shower. Looking down at my b*dy I notice the c–section scar is now just a red line, Selena said it takes humans weeks to be able to even walk after but thanks to Ghost I am able to be up and about just over forty–eight hours. afterwards. 

‘You realise you just left your new–born with a random Pack member.‘ I roll my eyes at Ghost as she continues to attack me about my failings as a mother. 

“What’s your problem?” I ask her as I rinse the shampoo from my hair. 

‘I’m exhausted, all the pup does is cry day and night. You realise when. I’m not chatting to you I’m normally sleeping.‘ I nod my head in understanding, me and Cas haven’t exactly had a lot of sleep either, Ghost’s attacks actually make more sense now. 

‘Lets try this again.” I tell her as I turn off the water and ring the excess from my hair, stepping from the shower I wrap myself in one of the bath towels hanging from the door. 

“You need to try and eat something little one, your momma and papa need sleep so they can look after you properly.” Sally is speaking quietly to Dean as he continues to wail in her arms, she’s walking back. and forth across the bedroom as she bounces him softly. 

“Alright, let’s try this again.” I tell Sally as I shrug myself into Cas’s 

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massive bathrobe, I don’t have one of my own. He keeps offering to get me one but I like wearing his so why bother. Walking over to the rocking chair I sit down and hold my hands out for Dean, his little face is scrunched up, his little face is bright red and he’s making so much noise it actually assaults my ears. 

“Alright, nice relaxing breath and then bring him to the n*pple.” I nod my head at Sally as I bring my chest down to Dean, he continues to wail as his little l*ps smack against my n*pple. It’s almost like he’s searching for it but can’t quite figure out it’s right there in front of him. 

“Come on Dean, it’s right there.” I tell him softly, I can feel Ghost willing me to just shove my breast into his mouth but even I know that’s not the right move. “It’s not working.” I tell Sally as I feel the tears start to boil to the surface again, “it’s me, he doesn’t want me.” Sally kneels down in front of me and starts to run a gentle finger down the side of Dean’s face. 

“It’s not you, every mother goes through something like this. Books and movies set unrealistic standards and most babies struggle at first. Once he gets going he won’t stop but if you really are struggling I have some formula.” I shake my head as I try to bring my n*pple to him again, he again continues to wail and scream. 

“All the books say ‘breast is best‘. Even Selena said it.” I hiccup as I start to cry again, “I need to do this, he needs this from me.” Sally puts a hand on my arm making me look up at her. 

“It’s only the best if both mother and baby can get on board with it. Formula doesn’t mean you have failed, it just means he will finally have a full belly and maybe even sleep.” Sally’s eyes hold mine as I slowly nod my head. I really wanted to do this whole breastfeeding thing but honestly I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I’m becoming overwhelmed and I know Dean must be starving and if Sally is right then he is éxperiencing all of my stress and anxiety too. 

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“What do I do?” I ask as Sally walks over to the bed and plucks up the bottle of formula she popped onto it when she first came in. 

“It’s already at the right temperature, after you have slept I’ll show you how to make it up.” I accept the bottle of white liquid from her and adjust myself so I’m fully covered, “now just hold him and bring the teat to his l*ps.” I nod my head as I do just that, Dean continues to scream but as soon as a small drop of liquid falls onto his l*ps he latches onto the n*pple shaped teat and starts suckling like his life. depends on it. 

“He’s doing it!” I say with joy, Sally beams at us as I give a deep sigh and lean back in the rocking chair, “thank you Sally.” 

“Don’t mention it, every new momma gets overwhelmed at some point. I helped with Cas and multiple Pack pups so if you have any questions. you just ask.” I grip her hand in mine and look into her eyes as we both listen to the peace and quiet of Dean finally eating. 

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